@Wardell - Please don't apologize. Life gets the best of all of us. I am glad that we were able to hit it off as well. I find it really hard to not write from the heart and include all my emotions when writing. It just isn't me. Thank you for all your support.

@NLG - Thank you. I am finding that I am a bit nervous about completing the next custom edge that will be given to me, just because of what happened this time, but I truly do feel like I learned my lesson. I find that I trust Asslvr so much, that I almost second guess myself sometimes. I know that I am struggling, I am thinking about using the safe word, but I don't know if I truly can't do it, or if I am just afraid to try. I like to push myself, but I have to find that fine line between pushing hard and pushing too hard.

@Asslvr - Thank you Sir. I love making you proud of me. It was hard for me to be open and honest and admit the extent of my fear, but hopefully it is able to help comfort somebody else. Please don't even feel like it was your fault. I know you felt like you let me down, but ultimately it is my body, and my mind and only I can truly know when I have had enough, hence the safewords. Thank you again, and you really are the only Dom for me.

@Mr-Lover-Lover - Thank you. It is something I have been trying to do.

Does "In case of emergencies" mean when Asslvr is being mean and teasing me to death and I am sure I am going to die if I don't cum?

@Nawee - Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. It really is hard to get over a label that somebody has given you, but I am working really hard to do it.

@Lola - I have the same reaction with a few words, but yes, it really does help to have somebody as amazing as Asslvr who understands what I am dealing with and can help me through it.

@Justjane - I am finding it easier and easier to share parts of myself with other, especially if it helps somebody else. I am tired of letting others change me into somebody I don't want to be and I am ready to start reclaiming myself.

@Strawdog - Thank you so much, and with Asslvr with me, I feel like I finally have that loving environment I needed in order to be strong again.

@NLG - *hugs* Thank you so much. It is hard, but I am strong and I am ready to fight back. (cue karate chop)

I giggled the entire length of the video.

Update:

Thank you to all the wonderful people who helped us with this bet. In the end, Asslvr lost as my page had over 500 visits more than his. I don't know if it proves his point that I am more popular than him, but it sure does mean that he gets to tie me up first when we are together again (coming really quickly). I guess in that case, I really don't mind losing.