Inspired by Butterfly's blog entry Hear me ROAR

Around 3 years ago, I had a pretty rough year with three serious visits to the emergency room. Since then, I learned these vital lessons I want to share with you now:


1. We are all broken.

Everyone. At least a little bit. And I don't mean just a little spleen or so. Everyone of us picked up bad habits and unhealthy attitudes from several past generations and human culture. Plus traumatas.
Usually,...

I’m minding my own business standing at a sink or table and then feel your hand slowly slide up my spine, around my neck until your gripping my jaw. You force my head back to make me look into your eyes staring intently until you flick your eyes down to the floor and back at me, with one raised eyebrow. I get the hint and kneel on the floor avoiding your gaze as you step directly in front of me, so closely that you’re just...

Disclaimer: Prior to this session I was on 15 days of denial and 10 days of absolutely no touching

One of my rules, as I am on no touch and am currently not allowed any stimulation, is that I can earn up to 20 mins a week by saving an additional £20 per week towards our savings fund. It’s up to me how much I can contribute each week, so I need to manage my allotted spending money from Lola and decide if it’s worth giving up some luxury purchases to earn stimulation.

As...

Last week I was punished by RST.

I have agreed to be obedient to him and be trained as a piggy under him. I was in need of discipline and he provided it.

One of the first things that happened after he took me into his service was a punishment. He immediately knew what a slut I was and disciplined me for it. He saw the desperate need in me to be controlled and decided to start off my subservience to him with a reminder of what I am.

I had to write 50 lines....

Another task from RST.

He had placed me under restriction for three days - no panties, no wine, no touching myself, and no adult content at all (no porn, no erotic stories, no going on GD unless to chat to him and post blogs at his command).

My restriction was over this morning, and he had me dress in my slut suit. He assigned me a short slutty denim skirt, a black bra, and a blue top that was too tight and showed off too much cleavage and too much bra.

I...

I love posting links for my Lovense toys. I love having strangers control my pleasure/torment. However, I no longer add people to the app unless I have chatted with them for awhile and built trust that they will respect my boundaries.

Lately, I have had guys use the links, but when I won't give them my app username, they hound me for it and when I stick to my no, they just end the session or leave the session.

Not taking no for an answer is EXACTLY why I don't give out...

Week 5
Monday complied with contract and rules.
Still sore from playing werewolf and last week’s edging and no orgasms not helped.
D not amused that although the Hunter did kill me off I seem to have come back as a spirit wolf. Said so in thread https://www.getdare.com/bbs/showthread.php?t=351196
Maybe I am an Angel defiantly am supernatural but not benevolent, celestial? Don’t think so!

Edging myself makes me feel sordid and controlled. Have to do it...