A random assortment of reports, thoughts, ramblings and information. Pretty much a view inside my wonderfully complicated, sometimes broken, and entertaining mind.
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Posted 05-06-2015 at 05:45 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Updated 05-09-2015 at 01:23 PM by Butterfly
I am back from my break and ready to continue talking about facing my fears and pushing my limits. Let's get started, shall we?
I have never thought myself to be attractive or sexy. I am overweight and have been told all my life that I am fat, ugly, etc. I have really bad self esteem and self confidence, and so when it comes to getting naked in front of somebody, I do everything I can to stall or prevent it from happening.
Even on our first two trips together, I was too...
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Posted 04-22-2015 at 09:00 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
I have an abusive background. So for me, the thought of being hit, spanked or beaten in any way, shape or form, was a huge NO!
However, Colosubguy bought me a pair of nipple clamps and it came with a bonus gift: a flogger. I was intrigued and Sir and I had experimented a little with it before I went to visit, but we couldn't wait to try it in person.
I was scared to let him hit me. I was scared of the panicky feeling that I have always had in the past when somebody had...
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Posted 04-19-2015 at 09:00 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
This blog is a little different ... it isn't necessarily facing one of my fears or pushing one of my limits, it is more about a hesitation that Sir had. Sir hates to see me hurt, and he would never do anything to hurt me intentionally. However the thought of him leaving marks on my body has really turned me on.
A lot of my friends on getDare love to show off the marks that they get from playing. A lot of them are from impact play. I have always been intrigued with their marks ... I love...
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Posted 04-16-2015 at 09:09 AM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Updated 04-16-2015 at 09:15 AM by Butterfly
I am going to interrupt my blog series on "facing fears and pushing limits" to post a blog that I have had saved in my drafts folder for almost 6 months.
After reading Sparklystar's blog about her Master being upset over a blog she posted, I left her a comment about blogs being your own personal thoughts and feelings, and not letting anybody say what you can and cannot write about. However, I felt like a hypocrite because I let this happen to me.
6 months ago,...
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Posted 04-13-2015 at 09:00 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Updated 02-08-2017 at 07:08 PM by Butterfly
Gag
One of my limits is using a gag. However I have owned one for a long time.
When I first presented my likes and limits to Sir, along with my toys list, I needed to take the time to explain to him why I had a gag if it was on my limits.
The thought of using a gag has always turned me on. I think there are a few reasons why I am drawn to the thought of using a gag. One of the reasons is that I make noises, and I have a hard time controlling my noises when I am...
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Posted 04-10-2015 at 09:00 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Something that Sir loves to play with is electricity. However, if you were to ask me what my top 3 fears were, being shocked (even by static electricity) would be on that list. I would cry if my roommate rubbed her feet on the carpet and came towards me, knowing that it was highly likely she would shock me. The last time Sir and I were together, we bought an e-stim butterfly. I used it on Sir while we were in Niagara Falls. However, because we were only together for a short time, Sir struggled with...
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Posted 04-08-2015 at 08:37 AM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Updated 04-08-2015 at 08:43 AM by Butterfly
Sir and I didn't tell many people about our trip last month, but we had the opportunity to be together again for two weeks. I flew to see him on March 6th and was with him until March 19th. It was a very last minute thing (I surprised him on Valentines Day) and because of everything we have been through the last couple months, we really didn't want to over think anything or put too much pressure on ourselves, and so we didn't share this trip with too many people. We also didn't plan a lot of specifics...
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