After reading blogs by Mandi, Happyme and Rosebrat, I have decided to continue the trend with my own thoughts ...

Discovering D/s
When I was 16, I was watching CSI and there was an episode about a man who died at a BDSM club. Seeing some of the aspects of BDSM, really turned me on, and I realized that it was something that I was interested in. I did a lot of research and fantasizing.

However, every time I thought about submitting to somebody, I pictured the physical...

Somebody brought to my attention that I didn't have this posted anywhere, so here it is:

💕Loves
- Edging
- Bondage
- Anal plugs
- Toys
- Nipple clamps (nipple pain)
- Ice
- Flogging
- Spanking

❤Likes
- Nipple pain
- Anal sex
- Control - all kinds
- Multiple orgasms
- Enemas

💘Dislikes
- Spanking
- Toothpaste
- Not being allowed to cum at the end...

I have always enjoyed writing. When I was in elementary school, I would write short stories for the kids that I babysat. In high school, I loved English class and started to write some poetry.

Earlier this year, I decided that I wanted to try and write some erotic fiction. I was very intimidated at first, but I loved the thought of turning somebody on through my words alone.

It also helped me gain some confidence when it came to talking about sex, and using certain sexual...

I have realized recently that I have been very very unhappy in many aspects of my life. In the past month, I have realized that I deserve better.

I have thought a lot about a lot of things, and I have finally made some decisions. Tomorrow I am starting the ball rolling on the biggest of these changes.

I am scared ... I don't like the unknown. I don't like the uncertainty of not knowing where I will be a year, 2 years, 5 years from now.

But at the same time,...

The other day I was overwhelmed with this sense of awe and amazement at this website. It wasn't one particular thing I read, or message I received ... it just kind of came out of the blue, but I realized how at home I felt here at GD and how it really did feel like a community.

It isn't just a website, but it is a group of very like minded people who support one another.

I have been a lurker off and on for over a year now. Every now and then I would come on and take a...

***Sorry in advance for this very off topic blog post. It is just relevant to my life right now, and needed a sounding board for my feelings***

I hate funerals. I mean, nobody likes funerals, but I hate them more than most. In my 25 short years, I have had to attend 15-20 with half of those being people who were extremely close to me.

I am an emotional person. I believe that wearing my heart on my sleeve has hurt me in the past, but as much as I try, and against my better...

I like to be in control of my life, unless I exclusively give that control to another person. I am a planner. I make a meal plan each week, and a list of groceries I will need. I make hotel reservations week or months ahead of time. I like to have a basic schedule or itinerary when going on trips. I like knowing what to expect tomorrow, next week, or 5 years from now.

So for me, when giving up control to another person, one thing that has always been a struggle for me, is the unknown....