Contemplating a big decision...

[notthatgirl]

Hello world,

I am a submissive with no Master at this time and I have been contemplating making a pretty big life choice. I am turning 40 this year.. and I am thinking that if I do not have a Master by my birthday, that I will consider my 40th birthday the last day I will (possibly) have an orgasm. That would be a rule that if I were to find a Master after that time, they could keep or toss, but as long as I am unowned, I will not have release.

Now, my birthday in not until November, so I am hoping to get some additional rules to make this choice I have made harder on me. Some things to make me truly "regret" that once the clock strikes and I am officially 40, I am officially (potentially) never having an orgasm again.

One thing that I have in mind already is that until my final day, I will not be allowed to orgasm. To use the months leading up to that final day to really learn about desperation and want.

Any other advice or rules?

[Bored]

notthatgirl,

That is a big decision, A couple things I would like to know:

1. Do you have a chastity device?
2. How often do you currently orgasm? 1, 2, 3 times a day/week/month?
3. Are you having a hard time finding a Master? If so, do you know why?
4. Do you really think you can go without an orgasm for the rest of your life?
5. Do you not plan on having sex for while or ever again?

These will probably help me (and probably others) come up with some advice.

Best,

Bored

[notthatgirl]

Originally Posted by bored

notthatgirl,
1. Do you have a chastity device?
2. How often do you currently orgasm? 1, 2, 3 times a day/week/month?
3. Are you having a hard time finding a Master? If so, do you know why?
4. Do you really think you can go without an orgasm for the rest of your life?
5. Do you not plan on having sex for while or ever again?

Thank you Bored,

To Answer your questions,

1. I do not have one at this time but with the journey I plan on investing in one, especially if I reach the last day and know that that is the "end"
2. I currently orgasm at least once a week, sometimes more.
3. I have limitation that make finding a Master difficult for me, online and in life.
4.That is the tricky part, I would need to go into chastity and figure out how to live with the denial and chastity.
5. Yes and no, there are ways to have sex and not orgasm. :$

[Bored]

Good answers,

Well that is a big decision indeed.

I have a another follow up question:

6. what is the longest you have gone without orgasm? (obviously since you have started orgasms on a weekly basis)

This is a really interesting idea, but honestly I am having trouble coming up with rules or advice because it is so unusual even for this site.

Best,

Bored

[notthatgirl]

6. what is the longest you have gone without orgasm? (obviously since you have started orgasms on a weekly basis)
6. I have gone a month before. It would have been longer but I caved and decided a month was long enough... but i have wanted to go much much longer.

I think i am mostly looking for ways to absolutely drive myself crazy with want so my big last hurrah before permanent denial is a big bang (or if the consensus is to be a little more evil a ruined or no last hurrah)... sort of a denial pet free for all

[indymaster]

Heres a rule for you. Every morning before you can pee you have to do three edges.

[notthatgirl]

Thank you. I will

[Bored]

So...

I think you need to get a chastity device. I also think that you need to find a person to keep the key (if you don't have someone you can physically give to key to (that can give it back for cleaning or sex "without orgasms") then you need to get a lock box with a changeable code (preferably with a combo more than more than just 4 numbers). And give the code to a trust worthy person.

You really have to remember that if you get an urge to orgasm, and you do, then it will ruin a 40+ year commitment. So you really need to find a person that you can talk (consistently). To make sure that you don't break the promise to yourself.

I honestly think you need to commit to 6months to a year first and talk it over with your partner and crime after that time. I think that maybe the "rest of your days" is shooting for the stars. I think you should get a goal that is closer to what you are used to before trying for more.

Best,

Bored

[pain slut joe]

sleep every night completely undressed with ankles & knees bound together (not too tight to restrict circulation) and dominant hand tied to knees. Once bound, kneel, place 1 clothes pin on each nipple and 2 on tongue, edge 3 times, remove pins and pleasant dreams. Repeat 3 edges in same position as described above every time you wake during night. (From when you start menstruation, you have 5 days off from this task.)

When you wake in morning, 3 more edges (before going to bathroom), remain kneeling with pins on, knees bound, dominant hand tied to knees and write a report here how you slept, how many edges....everyday for 30 days (include the days count in your post). Once report submitted, ok to remove pins, untie and go about your day

[notthatgirl]

It has been decided and is now certain that if on my birthday at the exact time of my birth (November 11th at 11:22pm) I do not have an owner, I will enter into permanent orgasm denial.

[Bored]

Originally Posted by notthatgirl

It has been decided and is now certain that if on my birthday at the exact time of my birth (November 11th at 11:22pm) I do not have an owner, I will enter into permanent orgasm denial.

Congrats!

Daily edges are a must! I am going to suggest a minimum of 2 edges per day. Preferably one at night one in the morning. This is to constantly remind you of your commitment.

Best,

Bored