Since my mental health was recently mentioned by a concerned member of this community, I thought I would write this blog to help alleviate any concerns, and maybe shed some light on my mental health and how it effects my D/s relationships.

I am a fairly open person. I have over 320 blogs posted on getDare and they range from kinky reports to romantic/sweet love notes to my husband/Dom. It includes tales of my little adventures, and lists of toys and tasks that I want to do. You can read...

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Five years ago, when I first created an account on getDare, I did so in order to respond to an ad for a Dom. Up to that point, I had one long term online Dom who actually lived in the same city as me (although we never met in person), and I had multiple short term Doms who I ran into on Omegle or other chat sites. Those Doms only lasted a few days, maybe a week at most.

I always thought that my submission was an outlet. I needed a short term fix for my life stresses. I wanted somebody...

I am a social butterfly. I find it relatively easy to make friends, despite having social anxiety in new/unfamiliar situations. I find it easy to get along with most people and can usually start a conversation with anybody I meet.

However, I have never been popular. I have never been the person that people fight to sit beside when going to the movies. I have never been somebody that people notice and watch and try to be like.

I work hard to be a good role model for my...

Q: How old are you?
A: 28

Q: Are you female?
A: Yes

Q: Can you prove it?
A: I can, but I won't. I have over 100 photos on getDare, multiple recordings of me singing, speaking, reading and doing sexy things. If you still doubt I am a female, you don't deserve the proof.

Q: Are you a slave?
A: No. I am a sub and there is a big difference between the two.

Q: Who is your Dom?
A: Mr. Devious (previously known...

I have been saying that I feel like going on strike for a little while now.

For the last week, and the next two weeks, I will be working 10 hour days at work, which when added to my one hour commute each way, equals 12 hours of work crap in a day, including Saturdays.

I also have been putting 5+ hours a day into trying to create new and engaging things and managing different areas on getDare, we well as doing my general socializing.

On top of those time...

It has been so long since the last time. I have been so good. So strong.

I was able to resist when my mom almost couldn't come to my wedding. I didn't do it when I had a miscarriage. I held back after watching my aunt die in front of me. I've stayed strong as my cousin told me about wanting to die.

But tonight I fucked up.

Its only a small spot on my thigh. The once pale skin is now red and inflamed and burning.

I fucked up.
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