This is not going to be a BDSM related post. It's the kinda introspective writing I usually do in my personal physical (paper) journals, but nowadays I enjoy expressing myself here, and some people enjoy the read so why keep it to myself ? Getting right into it now...

Perhaps you have some traits or tendencies that often annoy you about yourself, you see the way it affects people around you or it works against you in various situations and you hate it. Or maybe there are things that irritate...

Quickly I just wanna start by saying this is only my initial observations, from the pov of someone who just got into online BDSM or any serious-ish BDSM of any kind less than 2 months ago, I just like to share my raw thoughts as I go, they might be lacking, inaccurate to the real definitions or how things work, I'm still reading and learning about all of these stuff at my pace, but it doesn't mean I can't communicate in text form where I'm at with my understanding at any point, simply

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Usually I wait many, many hours (a full night of sleep actually) to write a report since my Owner is not in a rush, but today I'll make an exception and write it right away for the GD member that gave me the task to read, so I'm a bit shaken and can't really give the writing the same attention I usually would.


I was to put pegs on my nipples and then edge, and only after taking off the pegs, snap my clit for every 30 sec that my edge...

...𝓉𝑜 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝓇 𝒶𝓈 𝒶 𝓈𝓊𝒷𝓂𝒾𝓈𝓈𝒾𝓋𝑒.

• Good girl
• No you won't be doing that
• Obey me
• Trust me
• I just need you to try
• I'm proud of you
• I forgive you

On my PMS (premenstrual syndrome : set of symptoms that occur the few days before a period due to hormonal changes) I always get these cramps whenever I'm turned on, it's like I start thinking of something or reading something, the arousal goes up but instead of reaching a peak as usual, I get hit by this sudden pain similar to any regular period cramp, then the arousal goes down.

I never had the opportunity to ask other females about that (except one indirectly), not exactly the kinda thing...

Honestly I came to wonder how people manage to enjoy themselves from getting dares from random people on the forums.

I tried to experiment a bit with that lately, especially in the light of the situation where I was about to lose my Dom, and then having him back but in a more limited way, leading me to look at other possibilities of achieving fun.

A lot of things I tried were still fun, I didn't mind the light pussy stretching thread that I made.

But whenever...

Forum Games

✓ writing 42 lines

✗ 1 day in denial
✓ 3/3 days in denial
✓ 200 strokes in one session before end of denial
✓ 200 strokes (distribution unspecified) before end of denial
✓ 5/5 edges before end of denial



PM Dares / Keyword Threads

✓ wax melt
✓ blindfold 7 on tiptoe
.. stretch 10
✓ peg twist
✓ blindfold 15 hands behind back
✓ corner time

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