A random assortment of reports, thoughts, ramblings and information. Pretty much a view inside my wonderfully complicated, sometimes broken, and entertaining mind.
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Posted 01-04-2019 at 11:38 AM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
There is a reason that flight attendants tell you to secure your own mask before trying to assist others. If you pass out trying to help somebody else, you aren't going to be much help.
This is a good lesson for life but one that is really hard for me!
I am a caretaker by nature. I love helping other people. I want to fix things; make it all better. I frequently put others ahead of myself.
So many times I will have just a casual conversation with people...
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Posted 12-31-2018 at 04:59 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Well, I am sitting here in disbelief as I count down the hours until the end of 2018. I have to say that 2018 kicked my ass. It was a year full of loss, heart break and struggle. However, I survived and I know that I am ending the year stronger than I was at the beginning of the year. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?
Every year I take some time to reflect on the past...
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Posted 12-30-2018 at 09:37 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Updated 12-30-2018 at 09:42 PM by Butterfly
Mr. Devious and I decided to make some kinky gingerbread cookies tonight.
These first ones are a mean scary dom who is holding a delicious metal chain whip. His sub is a darling woman with a leather harness, wrist and ankle cuffs and ball gag.
Our next couple is sexy domme wearing a pink corset, sparkly gstring and heels and her subby is in his cock cage and hood and...
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Posted 12-13-2018 at 02:26 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
For a lot of my life I have been belittled. I have been told I am not good enough: I am ugly, fat, selfish, a bitch, a whore, a cunt. It started with my dad when I was about 9 or 10 and continued until I moved out of his house at the age of 16.
It is no wonder that I had bad self esteem and low self worth. Which played really well when I got into a 6 year relationship with a man who was over controlling and who figured out really quickly that I would do anything for a bit of assurance...
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Posted 12-13-2018 at 11:21 AM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
As I have mentioned in my previous blog, I have been attending counselling. The main reason I went was to help get my anxiety under control. I have been to counselling a few times throughout my life (probably closer to 12-15 different counsellors), but it was never something that lasted more than a few sessions. I always felt as though the counselor would help me put out a “fire” and then release me back into the world.
While this was helpful, it never really resolved the underlying issues....
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Posted 12-11-2018 at 05:11 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Hello friends and fellow getDarians.
I have been missing in action lately so for those who have no idea who I am, HOW DARE YOU!! Just kidding of course. I am nobody special.
Let me introduce myself: I am Butterfly! I am magical and silly and bratty.
Jaro is my sub and Mr. Devious is my Husband/Dom.
Now, for the three of you who are wondering...
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Posted 11-17-2018 at 06:53 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
This is a really hard blog for me. I am very self concious about my feet. They are not small and dainty like some girls feet. I got my feet from my dad. They are thick, wide and long with short, stubby little toes.
On top of this, I also have a skin condition called Schamberg Disease. It isn't harmful, but it also isn't pretty. It leaves my feet spotted with rust colored spots.
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