A random assortment of reports, thoughts, ramblings and information. Pretty much a view inside my wonderfully complicated, sometimes broken, and entertaining mind.
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Posted 11-17-2018 at 05:27 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Today Daddy and I put up our Christmas tree and decorated the house for Christmas. It was a lot of fun. I have some very special ornaments on my tree, but some of my favorites are the butterflies, Rapunzel, Eeyore and our engagement ornament.
Also, this year Daddy bought me a new ornament. It is Ariel from The Little Mermaid!!! It is so pretty and I really like it.
After we decorated, Daddy helped me write a letter to Santa.
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A Butterfly Princess <3
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Posted 10-24-2018 at 11:02 AM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
October was supposed to be my subby month. I was hoping to complete some subby tasks, have extra subby play time and really indulge my subby and little sides. However, that plan went to shit when a scary incident at work triggered some things in my past and left me a complete anxiety filled mess.
I walked away from getDare a few weeks ago and went into hiding. This place, one of my favorite escapes, was no longer feeling like a safe haven. Instead, it has become its own source of anxiety....
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Posted 10-02-2018 at 02:19 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
I need a break.
getDare has always meant so much to me, but lately it has been a source of heartache.
I have been feeling hurt. I have been feeling attacked. I have been feeling so incredibly anxious.
Right now, getDare is not feeling like the happy, safe place it used to be. And so, I need a break.
I am walking away for the rest of the week. I will return on Sunday to help finish the King Election and to "crown" the King. I will...
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Posted 10-01-2018 at 08:02 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
There has been a bit of grumbling about the King & Queen election and so I thought I would just try and smooth out some of the concerns.
Isn't it just a popularity contest? Well sure, of course it is. I mean how can it not be. It is all about showing support for your favorite people on getDare.
However, it isn't JUST a popularity contest.
Why did I create it?
Well there were many reasons ...
- I noticed that the forums were
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Posted 09-30-2018 at 06:29 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Lately I have been in a very Dommey headspace. I have a full time sub (Jaro) as well as a few casual play partners that I Top with. It seems that every time I turn around there is somebody new who I am bossing around.
I love being a Domme. I love being toppy, but at the same time, my subby side has been severely neglected the past few months. I crave that submission. I crave giving up control. I need it. I want it.
And while I am being Dommey, it is hard for me to get...
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Posted 09-29-2018 at 07:38 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
When we started to talk, I was in a vulnerable place. I felt isolated from my friends and family. I was in a bad relationship (but you didn't know that). I was looking for somebody to talk to, to confide in, to be friends with. I let my guard down.
I lied to you. I was not happy with my fiance. But I liked to protect myself. I didn't want to open myself up to the possibility of you getting the wrong idea. I was very clear with you that I was looking for friends only.
My...
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Posted 09-29-2018 at 06:48 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Updated 09-29-2018 at 06:57 PM by Butterfly
As I sit here and write this, my chest is still tight. It hurts to breathe. I have started this blog about 10 times now and wiped everything that I have written. The truth is, I really don't know how to describe the feelings that are happening inside me.
The thing is, I thought I was doing better. It has been awhile since I have had such a flare up in anxiety. It has been years and years since I have had more than one anxiety attack in a week.
I have no explanation for...
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