I was asked a question yesterday about when I realized I was a sissy. Honestly all details aside (they are on the answer on my AMA thread) it would really simply have to be the first time I admitted that I felt happier and really just right dressed as a girl. That got me thinking about a few other questions though.

What made me want to be a sissy?
When did I really decide to be a sissy?
Why am I a sissy?

I thought about this a lot yesterday, looking...

I always kept bugging Sir to give me some rules to follow as I am a person who likes things to be systematic and uncertainty messes me up. Untill last night Sir didn't really give me many rules other than the normal ones which I believe are common for almost every sub, but last night after me requesting it for weeks, Sir decided to give me a few more rules.
1. Always sleep naked. (except on my periods when I am allowed the privilege to wear panties)
2. Dry hump the pillow for 10 min before...

It felt like playing a weird strategy game: How to cross off as many dares – especially masturbation dares – as possible without interrupting the obligations of everyday life? And of course without risking an orgasm. Needless to say I was denied again. And after not being able to finish a single masturbation dare the day before yesterday and a "rest day" yesterday the tasks had really accumulated. Moreover, I had a really busy day, appointments and papers approaching the deadline. But that's...

Well thanks to a helping hand I have moved my sissy training plan to a thread and have some interest so yay for that!

I received my first task on my calendar as well, no panties on every third day, sounds fun and I'll see how that goes. No panties tomorrow!

I also started an ask me anything (AMA) thread and that has been tons of fun so far too!

I'm beginning to like it here and can't wait so see how things progress and share some more updates.

Conditions for this punishment:
- kneel on chickpeas for 45 minutes
- get 20 spanks with a ruler on each ass cheek
- get 20 spanks with a ruler on my cunt
- have clamped nipples all the time

Here is my report:
I took a good amount of chickpeas, placed them on the floor and kneeled on them. I've done this with rice before ant thought it would be easier since the chickpeas are bigger. Thought wrong, it was like kneeling on gravel. I was a bit nagging, so...

When you meet someone online and instantly something clicks, something that can't actually be explained. When I met my master online that happened but for some circumstances we were not able to get serious then. Starting from then untill now I saw many other dominants but nothing really happened. You see I am a bit stubborn and hard to control, I like to tease my master and it's hard for me to control these tendencies at times which always gets me in trouble and makes it hard for me to submit.
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Today my report is going to be short: I didn't feel well yesterday. I had burnt the candle at both ends over the extended Easter weekend, sleeping no more than three to four hours a night. I felt physically tired and emotionally drained. Even my pussy had given up on its non-stop buzzing and only sent occasional "I'm here", "I'm waiting", and "Don't you forget about me!" messages. As the remainder of the week will be stressful I took a rest day, limiting myself to the dares...