Growing up in a small German town in the 1980s and 1990s, I have always tended to be of different opinion and a social alien. Maybe if I hadn't questioned and challenged so many standards, I wouldn't have had as much trouble. Anyway, I did, and I also suffered from ubiquitous sexism, quite balanced positive as well as negative, though I tended to overlook it. Even recently, I noticed I am sexist myself. Still today, for me it's in plenty of commercials, ads, everyday phrases and simple sayings, as well...

WOOF: I'm a puppy for a few hours
PET: You choose what pet I should imitate for a given time

SMACK: I'll spank/slap any bodypart 1-100 times
NIPPLES: I'll use/hurt my nipples, your choice how

WET: I will piss myself wherever I am, instantly
DRINK: Next time I pee, I will swallow it all

TIED UP: Put me in a bondage situation of your choice
CUFFS: My wrists or ankles are cuffed for a given time

BACKDOOR: I'll fuck my...

I don’t really “like” diapers, but they are a huge turn on for me. My big turn on is humiliation and degradation. Wearing a diaper is both of these. Also the feeling of wetting a diaper or wearing a wet diaper is gross and makes me feel aroused too. But there are other small things that I find arousing about diapers. When wearing them there is a subtle urge to pee them. And this urge is a weird sort of turn on, where I want to pee but I also don’t want to which makes a delightful type of dilemma.

Finally took the test, here are the results!

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
90% Rope bunny
73% Submissive
65% Switch
64% Slave
62% Sadist
59% Brat
58% Experimentalist
56% Dominant
48% Master/Mistress
43% Daddy/Mommy
42% Pet
40% Exhibitionist
33% Masochist
31% Owner
29% Primal (Prey)
28% Primal (Hunter)
27% Voyeur
26% Degrader
25% Non-monogamist...

So, starting today I am to do a daily journal on what I have done and how I feel about it.
It will be hard for me to put myself out there and let everyone "see" me.
I am very closed person emotionally and physically and never like feeling like I have exposed myself in any way or am getting any more attention.
I will hopefully have my first entry tonight or in the morning.
Here it is.
My Life as His.

One year ago today, I started on a journey with a little worm. If you had asked me back then, I never would have guessed that we would be where we are today.

When I first mentioned Jaro, I did so because it seemed like he needed some help and guidance to explore his kinky and submissive side. He wasn't really sure what he liked or didn't like, and he wasn't even sure if he would be a good sub.

Fast forward a year, and Jaro is now a blackmail slave to two very mean and sadistic...

It's been a while since I looked for sex dates on according local dating portals, including a kinky one. You could think it would be easy to find someone online if you were as willing to fuck any stranger as I was. Nope, I was wrong. Anyway, I still found out that I am picky in general. I was little picky looking for a sex date. I am way more picky accepting slaves here on getDare. I was very picky with the man I married and wanting to live my life with.

Several times it turned out good...