A random assortment of reports, thoughts, ramblings and information. Pretty much a view inside my wonderfully complicated, sometimes broken, and entertaining mind.
What goes up, must come down
Posted 04-02-2019 at 11:03 AM by Butterfly
One downside to sharing my triumphs so openly to all of you, is having to share the tribulations. I strive to be an open person. I want to share with people the truth. I don't like to play games or hide behind a veil that makes my life seem full of rainbows and glitter and sunshine all the time.
I bravely put myself out there for people to see the things I have overcome and accomplished, but I don't minimize or downplay the struggles that I face on the way.
However, sharing news like this is harder for me than most of the things that I share. Maybe it is due to the fact that this was out of my control. This isn't something that I decided upon, it was something that was decided for me. It is not something that I can fix. And I don't feel as though I can share the details openly because it isn't my story to tell.
My heart aches as I write this. I guess in an age where things are posted on social media for others to read, it really doesn't feel "official" until I post the news in my blog, edit my profile and change my signature.
Dr. Dom has "released" me. He has done so for a good reason. I do not begrudge him in any way for doing so. He made the best decision he could for himself. I am a huge advocate for choosing your own happiness, and making the hard decisions that are needed in order to put your happiness first. He has done exactly that and I am proud of him for coming to that decision.
I feel sad, lost, scared ... numb. I honestly am not sure what to make of this situation. I need some time to heal, and mourn the loss of a relationship that I thought had amazing potential.
But this isn't going to clip this butterfly's wings. Nope! I am going to soar and fly freely and happily until somebody else captures my subby little heart. Spread the word ... this butterfly is waiting to be captured.
I bravely put myself out there for people to see the things I have overcome and accomplished, but I don't minimize or downplay the struggles that I face on the way.
However, sharing news like this is harder for me than most of the things that I share. Maybe it is due to the fact that this was out of my control. This isn't something that I decided upon, it was something that was decided for me. It is not something that I can fix. And I don't feel as though I can share the details openly because it isn't my story to tell.
My heart aches as I write this. I guess in an age where things are posted on social media for others to read, it really doesn't feel "official" until I post the news in my blog, edit my profile and change my signature.
Dr. Dom has "released" me. He has done so for a good reason. I do not begrudge him in any way for doing so. He made the best decision he could for himself. I am a huge advocate for choosing your own happiness, and making the hard decisions that are needed in order to put your happiness first. He has done exactly that and I am proud of him for coming to that decision.
I feel sad, lost, scared ... numb. I honestly am not sure what to make of this situation. I need some time to heal, and mourn the loss of a relationship that I thought had amazing potential.
But this isn't going to clip this butterfly's wings. Nope! I am going to soar and fly freely and happily until somebody else captures my subby little heart. Spread the word ... this butterfly is waiting to be captured.
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Sending you all the love and hugs ♡ x
Posted 04-02-2019 at 12:16 PM by LittleMissSass -
Posted 04-02-2019 at 12:33 PM by Butterfly -
Posted 04-02-2019 at 01:33 PM by darkblue -
So sorry to hear that Butterfly. Things seemed to be getting exciting for you so it's such a shame it had to end early. I don't think I'm the best for advice sometimes but if you ever need someone to talk to my inbox is open (as you know I'm going through something similar).
Let's hope it doesn't take too long for someone to come swooping in with a butterfly net to capture you soon...
Posted 04-02-2019 at 02:50 PM by PrincessJessica -
Posted 04-02-2019 at 03:30 PM by Blue Fox -
Posted 04-02-2019 at 04:16 PM by Peachybaby -
Posted 04-02-2019 at 09:47 PM by kurious kat -
I am sorry to hear that. Glad you could write about it and glad it was the right decision but it sucks and hurts and that's not happy.
I have naught to offer but sympathy, the sympathy of someone random on the internet whom you managed to reach and whose emotions you evoked with your words. For what that's worth.
If it helps, God bless you.
ConniePosted 04-02-2019 at 10:10 PM by Consensus -
Posted 04-03-2019 at 09:11 AM by Butterfly