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After finishing my previous tasks, I was so wet and horny I couldn't resist breaking my (48 hours) denial, I just had to. Following that I felt bad for doing so, but this made this mouth soaping task that I was dreading so much a lot easier to approach, I felt like I actually needed a punishment to feel less guilty for breaking 2 days of denial (which is really not much, when other people I see are denied for months and years).

The fact that it felt more deserved due...

Since I am not currently owned, I felt the need to update my list for any potential casual play I might find myself pursuing in the mean time, because admittedly there's a lot of things that just aren't worth the risk for strangers. Besides I find that some of my tastes can shift a bit here and there. This will be updated every now and then I guess, don't know if it's normal but that's how I'm gonna have to go about it.


Likes

• Masturbation / Vibration (as a personal endeavor)
• Vaginal

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Before listing mine I invite you to also think of how yours compare and share them if they are any different.

• Shutting the fuck up
  
• Eating
  
• Sleeping
  
• Writing/whining
  
• Stretching

I don't know if it's a Sub drop, but after today's session I went from wanting to give up on the last tasks, to questioning my entire desire to be a part of this (BDSM, a Sub, taking pain, everything), to wanting to just announce that I give up in the current tasks again, to this...


Update 1 :

I'm not crying...

Following my recent breast torment adventures on Ladies.exposed I got asked which task I enjoyed the most, and as per usual I had no clue, tbh mid-play or post-session is the worse time to get me to self-assess and actually expect a valide answer, my mind is very blurry, I can't pin point exactly what my feelings are. When I was expected to write reports for my Dom it was usually after a good night of sleep.

Where was I going with that ? But even now (it's been a day) I still don't have...

• Being submissive (in the sense of offering my obedience, serving and pleasing, not being forced and abused)
  
  
• Love and softness being thrown in the mix
  
  
• Bodywriting
  
  
• Breast play/torture
  
  
• Very light humiliation (at least my perception of it)
  
  
• Being told "good girl" (especially in the context of letting me know I'm doing well in enduring something)
  
  
• Being called / identifying as a Slave

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Part I

Some updates on how this went after the initial post.

I was assigned a punishment consisting of 100 spanks with a hairbrush on my bare ass (total not for each side) for every time I accidentally ruined or came without permission. That ended up being 3 ruins this far.

The extensions that people on ladies.exposed added hit the limit (100). I tried to keep edging when it was still around 50, but I had another ruin at edge #41 just when someone finally...