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getDare: A safe place
Posted 03-06-2019 at 08:50 PM by Butterfly
I have spent a lot of my life feeling unsafe. Growing up in the house that I did, I never knew when I would be verbally or emotionally attacked. I never knew what I was going to get when I walked in the door. I was constantly on edge.
It was a theme that continued throughout my teen years. Having friends who were hot and cold, off and on. Not having anybody who I could count on. It seemed that anytime I got attached to somebody they would hurt me or disappear.
![](https://media.thegospelcoalition.org/static-blogs/tgc/files/2013/02/not-safe.jpeg)
Of course being sexually assaulted and in a car accident just made me feel less safe. But the truth is, I have had a lot of fears in general: walking outside in the dark, storms, being alone ... I have learned to be suspicious and skeptical.
When I got attacked at work in September, I reached the height of not feeling safe. My anxiety was so high it was crippling. It took every ounce of strength that I had to get up and go to work, and some days I just couldn't.
Everything came crashing down during the getDare election. My one safe retreat from the world became a place where I didn't feel welcome. I didn't feel safe here anymore. I had to leave.
This was super hard for me. getDare has always meant so much to me. This community has built me up, it is where I met my husband. It literally changed my life! I have a lot of passion for the people and community here, not just the kink and sexy times.
After a break, I slowly tested the waters. I dipped a toe in here and there, and I started to be present in the chat room again. I also bumped my ad.I was starting to enjoy being here again, but still was hesitant.
However, these past few weeks has been a turning point. I am feeling safe here again. I can feel the support of the community around me, cheering me on. I have met some new people, all of them amazing. I have a new Dom who I adore. I am writing SO MUCH! My bratting game is on point!
![](https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-w38VcQ5OipM/VlkzXSccOXI/AAAAAAAAMk8/MkPVTeU8Vg8/s1600/IMG_20151128_065234_513.jpg)
Not only am I feeling safe here again, but it is giving me great joy! I have these fluttery butterflies in my tummy, bouncing around all giddy and excited. It is a wonderful feeling. I feel so much energy. I want to bounce around the getDare walls, bounce around chat, skip through the blogs section, and prance around the threads.
![](https://i.giphy.com/media/E5TVttEnaz4ME/giphy.webp)
That feeling of safety is so precious and important to me. I am going to embrace it while it lasts.
It was a theme that continued throughout my teen years. Having friends who were hot and cold, off and on. Not having anybody who I could count on. It seemed that anytime I got attached to somebody they would hurt me or disappear.
![](https://media.thegospelcoalition.org/static-blogs/tgc/files/2013/02/not-safe.jpeg)
Of course being sexually assaulted and in a car accident just made me feel less safe. But the truth is, I have had a lot of fears in general: walking outside in the dark, storms, being alone ... I have learned to be suspicious and skeptical.
When I got attacked at work in September, I reached the height of not feeling safe. My anxiety was so high it was crippling. It took every ounce of strength that I had to get up and go to work, and some days I just couldn't.
Everything came crashing down during the getDare election. My one safe retreat from the world became a place where I didn't feel welcome. I didn't feel safe here anymore. I had to leave.
This was super hard for me. getDare has always meant so much to me. This community has built me up, it is where I met my husband. It literally changed my life! I have a lot of passion for the people and community here, not just the kink and sexy times.
After a break, I slowly tested the waters. I dipped a toe in here and there, and I started to be present in the chat room again. I also bumped my ad.I was starting to enjoy being here again, but still was hesitant.
However, these past few weeks has been a turning point. I am feeling safe here again. I can feel the support of the community around me, cheering me on. I have met some new people, all of them amazing. I have a new Dom who I adore. I am writing SO MUCH! My bratting game is on point!
![](https://1.bp.blogspot.com/-w38VcQ5OipM/VlkzXSccOXI/AAAAAAAAMk8/MkPVTeU8Vg8/s1600/IMG_20151128_065234_513.jpg)
Not only am I feeling safe here again, but it is giving me great joy! I have these fluttery butterflies in my tummy, bouncing around all giddy and excited. It is a wonderful feeling. I feel so much energy. I want to bounce around the getDare walls, bounce around chat, skip through the blogs section, and prance around the threads.
![](https://i.giphy.com/media/E5TVttEnaz4ME/giphy.webp)
That feeling of safety is so precious and important to me. I am going to embrace it while it lasts.
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Posted 03-06-2019 at 09:06 PM by Jaro -
Posted 03-06-2019 at 09:09 PM by Butterfly -
Posted 03-06-2019 at 10:25 PM by Lemuricon -
I'm so glad that you have found joy in being here again. I'm having so much fun with you! ♡
Posted 03-07-2019 at 03:43 AM by LittleMissSass -
Posted 03-07-2019 at 07:44 AM by MastersVoice -
Posted 03-07-2019 at 10:02 AM by Dr.Dom -
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I am having so much fun with you as well!!Posted 03-07-2019 at 11:43 AM by Butterfly -
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You have played much more than a small part.Posted 03-07-2019 at 11:44 AM by Butterfly -
Posted 03-07-2019 at 11:59 AM by owlart -
Posted 03-07-2019 at 12:29 PM by Peachybaby -
Posted 03-07-2019 at 01:50 PM by Consensus -
Posted 03-09-2019 at 11:06 AM by creativekink -
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All of the wonderful comments have meant so much to me.Posted 03-09-2019 at 07:52 PM by Butterfly