20/F I am your open book and you can read me.

[ToiletTasteTester]

Hello stranger!

I’m new here and this is my first post! I'm excited to be a part of the community and I'm sure I'll be posting more soon enough. My lovely Dom has instructed me to do an AMA for my first post so here I am.

Rules
As per his instructions, I am required to respond to every single question I receive, with some caveats. Firstly, I will not be responding to any question whose answer involves personally identifying information. Secondly, I will not respond to unreasonable questions or behavior (for example, if someone asks hundreds questions all at once). And finally, at my discretion I may choose to not respond to any vanilla questions that are not kink/BDSM related or not sexual or not embarrassing etc, however I assume I'm going to answer most if not all of those if I get any :3. One last thing, I'm not going to respond to PMs and have them turned off, please direct your questions to this post only. I am the property of my Dom and my Dom alone.

About Me
I go by Yelena, I'm almost 21, I have been interested in kink for a long while and just recently had my 2 year anniversary with my Dom, we are long distance. I’m Deaf from birth. My favorite kinks are as follows: Bondage, Orgasm Control and Denial/Chastity (I have a belt which he requires I wear on occasion), Petplay, Breathplay, Power Exchange, Service, Praise, Light Degradation, and Light Pain Play. My username is because my Dom has recently been training me to be a piss slut and I was required to pick an embarrassing name for the account. My hobbies are reading, sketching and VR/videogames. Kink is a very large part of my personality and identity. As a sub I am not a brat and enjoy following instructions and obeying orders more than anything else.

And without further ado, I hereby become your personal open book, please ask me anything!

[Sex Speed Runner]

How did you meet your dom?

Whats the longest you have been in denial?

How are you enjoying you transformation into being a piss slut?

[ToiletTasteTester]

Originally Posted by Sex Speed Runner

How did you meet your dom?

Whats the longest you have been in denial?

How are you enjoying you transformation into being a piss slut?

On Reddit! He made a very sweet post on r/BDSMpersonals and I reached out. I had been looking for a while and read many many posts before his. Most of them on that subreddit are just kink shopping lists, but his was real and made me really feel like there was a person behind it. Happily there was and the rest is history.

Well over several months x.x my Dom keeps me denied pretty much 24/7. We don't really keep specific track of it like most people into denial, but yeah definitely very long stretches. I am constantly needy. The belt of course makes things both easier and more difficult at the same time. More difficult because I want to play with myself more when it's on but easier because I can't do it very effectively if at all. But I can't wear it all the time so.

Well I have been nervous about it, he has been working on it for a couple months and I'm getting better :3. He has made me lick my toilet, and I couldn't at first but now I can and do when he asks. It makes me feel like I'm nothing and I like that feeling. Just to obey gives me all the pleasure I need.

[ReallyMadHermit]

First off, great attitude! You sound like a good, well-behaved sub.

Have you integrated kink into your gaming much? Can you share some stories about it?

It's been a couple years, what are some of the things that make you feel closest given the distance?

Is there anything else you've been trained to do that you wouldn't have done before, and if so, can you talk about it? Is there anything you're looking forward to being trained to do?

[ToiletTasteTester]

Originally Posted by ReallyMadHermit

First off, great attitude! You sound like a good, well-behaved sub.

Have you integrated kink into your gaming much? Can you share some stories about it?

It's been a couple years, what are some of the things that make you feel closest given the distance?

Is there anything else you've been trained to do that you wouldn't have done before, and if so, can you talk about it? Is there anything you're looking forward to being trained to do?

Thank you! I try my best. It helps that I really enjoy it :3

Oh yes we certainly have! XD we used to play overwatch together before the update, and I was his heal slut. If I let him die I would be punished in various ways. I miss that and wish we still played, but I recognize that blizzard sucks. We also play D&D, just him and I and a DM. He will tie certain things to die rolls, the more 1s I roll the more I spank myself after the session, more 20s more rewards, etc. One session he made a table with lots of stuff, I had to put pegs on myself and take them off mid session, put in plugs and things. Hopefully our DM never finds this owo

We spend a lot of our time doing things outside of kink. We have a weekly book club where I read a chapter of a book he picks and we talk about it. Currently we are going through book of the New Sun, one of his favorite series, and he has read it a bunch of times and is intimately familiar with all it's nuance. So many times we have been in very long in depth discussions where it seems like we disagree about the point we're talking about, but it turns out we actually mostly agree and just were saying it in different ways xD. We have spent hours in conversations like this and they are all so much fun. And then he ties me up or spanks me or makes me piss on my hand afterwards hehe. We also play games together, before it was overwatch, but now it's D&D, and recently he got me the Mass Effect games and I'm streaming them for him over discord while I play. It's a series I have been interested in but never played. It remains to be seen if we will work anything kinky into that game xD.

Oh, so many things! With my partner before him, I was trained by them in very specific ways. A lot of my Dom's time so far has been spent breaking those things I've been familiar with. For example, I used to (I think dislike isn't quite the word but I can't really think of a better alternative) dislike edging. With my ex I wasn't allowed to touch myself at all, basically ever. And so he has put in a lot of work to get me used to that and edging especially. Also we have been looking into some hypnosis like stuff, I see a certain word and I react immediately because of repeated constant training. It isn't really for everyone and was kind of scary to start with but for me it really does work. For example, there is a word that when he says it, I am to piss myself. In my head as it happens, I know I could stop myself, but I wouldn't ever do that. The moment I see it I just let it all go. Brain off. That isn't a position I expected to be in. There's even something that he never expected to be doing but we have really been doing a lot lately! I am very turned on by hands, I'm not a very visual person as far as sexual arousal is concerned, I'm more interested in ideas and scenarios and the porn that I look at isn't actually about the physical media, it's about placing myself into it. Anyways, one thing that does arouse me from just the image without any context is hands xD idk why or how but yeah, I guess it's similar to people who are really into feet, but for me it's hands. Anyways, my Dom (and me by proxy) have a Clothed Dom naked sub kink. When I am at home I am naked. Always. I'm naked right now writing this x.x. and it was always the case that I would be the exposed one for him while he remains clothed and comfortable over me. However recently he has started using pictures to control my behavior, teasing me with pictures of his hands... Holding belts... Djfjjdfkjfmf long story short, something we but especially him never expected to happen.
As for something I look forward to... I'm not sure, I think it is hard to say because, well, as an example, I never looked forward to being a piss slut. More to the point, at the start it was a hard limit. But as I grew more comfortable with him as a person and as I came to trust him, I was open to trying and now that I'm mostly there I am enjoying it. He has lots of things in mind and always hints at stuff and I can never predict him. So I'm sure whatever comes up I'll be surprised and nervous and probably not want to do it at first.

[ReallyMadHermit]

Wow, I must have struck a sweet spot with my questions! I'm not gonna quote all that or I'd double the page length... But thank you for the comprehensive answer, and all the spirit you put into it, too!

I'm actually interested in the hypnosis stuff myself, could you elaborate on how you were conditioned to respond to queues? Let's say I'm dabbling, no trigger words yet, but general conditioning is going well.

Also, I highly recommend checking out Deep Rock Galactic, it's a 4-player coop game but 2 players makes for a really comfy time. I suspect you two can find ways to work kink into it easily enough, and since it's not PvP, it'll be a little more fair to you, no chance of getting punished because Reaper made it his personal mission to kill your dom lol