FootLover’s orgasm ration 2024

[Leland]

Life is a cruel bitch so don't worry... work on your edges with your own pace and if you are too slow this will only make your ordeal harder and amusing in a different way. So for now I'm ok with no mandatory tasks and we wil stick with Deathwing's original optional idea of edging to a mystery pic every now and then to reduce edges. So let me ask: what is it that you prefer not doing? I guess It's recording yourself, right? If so, no problem, I'll take it as a reasonable limit... I'm also still baffled that you agreed to such insanity born out of a joke... I guess deep down you really needed something so intense. So no need to be cruel anymore, it's now just the time to slowly struggle to pay the price.

PS I think you missed my double posting above when I asked you about your censored porn and how you use it so I can think of a way to reduce edges with it as promised.

https://www.getdare.com/bbs/showpost...4&postcount=85

[footlover.london]

Originally Posted by Leland

Life is a cruel bitch so don't worry... work on your edges with your own pace and if you are too slow this will only make your ordeal harder and amusing in a different way. So for now I'm ok with no mandatory tasks and we wil stick with Deathwing's original optional idea of edging to a mystery pic every now and then to reduce edges. So let me ask: what is it that you prefer not doing? I guess It's recording yourself, right? If so, no problem, I'll take it as a reasonable limit... I'm also still baffled that you agreed to such insanity born out of a joke... I guess deep down you really needed something so intense. So no need to be cruel anymore, it's now just the time to slowly struggle to pay the price.

PS I think you missed my double posting above when I asked you about your censored porn and how you use it so I can think of a way to reduce edges with it as promised.

https://www.getdare.com/bbs/showpost...4&postcount=85

Thank you for that glimmer of mercy Leland. I am also baffled how I have agreed to this.

With respect to things that I don’t like doing (that are not limits) you have already hit on some of them. Piss is definitely one….and there is also a limit to how much I can do subtlety when alone. But that is one.

Porn control is another area. I’m fundamentally a Beta Slut and so even when desperate and denied I can’t resist touching and edging my maggot. I’m also a ‘straight’ male (I think) but have been ‘forced’ in the past to consume gay porn. Full gay porn is still very challenging for me (no judgement…just saying)…but cock worship and sissy porn bridges the gap of humiliating and not what I’d choose to be doing but still something that has enough of a hook.

Recording myself is also an ordeal (and not always possible) but isn’t a limit. Indeed, I have been made to do it a lot in recent years, with some exposure/sharing of videos and pictures too. I have, for reference, accumulated quite a collection of pictures and videos myself in various predicaments - edging, humiliating cumshots, dressed as a sissy (I do this occasionally but rare given my secrecy) and similar. One of my blog posts on here also describes one of the most humiliating orgasms I once had (to a picture of my own dick, with the cumshot also recorded and which I still have now). I had wondered if that was one of the inspirations for one of the gamble options.

I’m not generally into pain, unfortunately, this is largely a limit. Though, provided not to severe, this could be considered as a genuine punishment (I mean punishment rather than as part regular task). Also not into anal (basically a limit I think).

I am sorry too. I had missed your previous question on censored porn. I’ve increasingly started to use this as a way to frustrate and humiliate myself. This started out with me censoring and captioning pictures from my own porn collection which I also published on BDSMLR (user SubbyFootSlave if you’d like to see). I’ve done much less of this recently, which largely reflects the fact that I have instead been systematically censoring my video porn collection. This is very time consuming but has grown quite a lot in the past year or so (now about 4.5 hours in total).

I then use this collection to edge (not always but sometimes to humiliate myself) and recently cum (one of my rules this year). Clearly my preference would be for uncensored porn but this is part of me accepting I am a pussyfree beta. Most of my videos censor pussy/breasts/cleavage only though recently I’ve also started to censor out feet. So I guess that explains how I use it, in general. There is also another angle, perhaps, whereby creating these videos also slows down my edging (it’s very difficult to create these videos while edging). As a guide, I would say that each minute of censored porn I make probably uses up about an hour of time (during which I cannot edge). So while I enjoy this, sort of, it’s also a bit of a penance / source of frustration as I’m not playing with my maggot in this time….like my inner slut wants to.

Just to be clear, there is obviously no need for you to come up with tasks in this area. I more just wanted to answer your question and give you more information about me and what I get up to.

Thank you for showing interest and again for your slight mercy on me. Scared though I am, I am pleased that you are considerately directing me.

[Leland]

I also didn't like piss... nor AnonRK! But we learned to like it in limited light amounts! The trick is to empty yourself then drink a lot of water to make only very light piss as I already suggested and this way it becomes even enjoyable while edging, to the point that one drinks 2 glasses of it and wants more

So yes, I'm trying to turn everyone into a piss slut, so try to... add it into your routine every few days. To reward your efforts: every piss mouthful edge done the day you will try it for the first time, will count as 4 edges instead of 2.

Thanks for the infos, bridge gay porn is definitely something to use in the future for the optional reductions, together with your already available self recordings and the censored porn. I'm also not too much into pain so I will probably not suggest it, or small optional dares in the future.

Getdare is really amazing, after years I'm still surprised by the variety and weirdness of some rare kinks. Like the living statue one, or your kink of working for hours to ruin porn, and I'm also trying to figure out a kink related to dream recall... we are so twisted...

And now I really want to add tasks or rules related to your censoring funishment kink... I'm REALLY tempted to dare you to do all your 5 years edges to censored porn only... but today I'm kind... so what if I gently push your humiliating kink instead?

- If you edge to uncensored porn, the first 3 edges of the day don't count.
- If you make censored porn for a full hour, and never touch yourself while doing it, you can remove 3 edges. Max 2 hours/day!

PS
https://www.getdare.com/bbs/showpost...&postcount=242

[footlover.london]

While I will not generally update daily, I wanted to provide a little update on my progress so far towards my new ordeal. As much just to show Leland and you all that I am taking it seriously and appreciate your interest (and occasional mercy).

It’s only part of the way through today, but I have made some reasonable progress (less than I’d like to have made). That said, I won’t be able to continue at this pace.

Specifically, today I have edged 55 times and earned 57 Leland credits.

Most of my edges have been to normal, uncensored porn. And following the rule change earlier, I have disregarded now the first three of these. I did, however, hold one edge for 10 seconds so my three points penalty was partly offset (55 edges into 54 credits). This did remind me of just how risky this is though and, given the penalty involved if it goes too far, I won’t be attempting often.

You will be pleased to know, Leland, that three of my edges this afternoon were done with a mouthful of piss (which I swallowed after each edge). I have actually done this before, so in order to be honest I will not accept your additional bonus points for trying this for the first time (I hope you appreciate my honesty). They each of these does count for two credits which raised my overall credits to 57.

I had forgotten about just how difficult this is. The initial intake and holding is horrible but bearable. But first, not being able to breath deeply while edging with my mouth full made the edge itself much more intense (and again, risky). I was petrified when I stopped stroking that the after effects would keep building past the point of no return. But thankfully it didn’t. My delight was short lived though. After the first swallow, in particular, I was reminded that the aftertaste is almost more disgusting and intolerable than the initial taste itself. Acrid and bitter, almost musty. So disgusting. But, at least I earned three bonus credits and have hopefully please Leland and others.

Most of my afternoon porn has also been either censored or to pictures and videos of myself edging (and similar). I didn’t need to do this but, again, wanted to try to impress you all to maybe encourage your continuing compassion. I also censored some more video porn but, unfortunately, couldn’t keep my hand off my maggot and, by the time I realised, I had forfeited any benefit I might get.

I may have a chance to add more edges later but had an opportunity to post an update now and wanted you all to feel connected to my suffering.

As always, any additional tasks and challenges are welcome. Update on my counts etc below.

Counts:
Date of last orgasm: 29 April 2024.
Edges since last orgasm: 138.
Leland Edges: 55
Leland task credits: 57
Most edges in one day: 190.
Orgasms during 2024: 8/22 (was 25)
Total 2024 edges: 4,252.

Rules:
1. Stroke 100 times while hard before first pee each day (failing means can’t use this toilet for a day).
2. Time between next orgasm must be longer than between last (or orgasm counts as 2).
3. All cum must be eaten.
4. Must edge (at least) once on Monday, twice Tuesday… If a day is missed then do double the next day (plus the missed edges).
5. Ten seconds of no touch foot porn for each edge.
6. All orgasms to censored porn (or count as 2).
7. All orgasms in February count as double.
8. No cumming during November.

Tasks:
1. Dice game for one orgasm. When I want to cum I must roll a dice and edge that number of times. I then roll a second: if this is lower than the first, edge this number of times and I am denied. If higher, then edge the dice count again and roll a third time: one or two means I ruin (still counts as orgasm); three or more and I can cum freely.
2. Chew worn socks each evening before bed until next orgasm (done).
3. One orgasm while fucking or licking a toilet seat (done).
4. One orgasm while fucking a desert - cake, trifle, eclaires etc. which I then eat up hands free.
5. During my weekend, alone, to spend at least three hours continuously erect with anyone able to check on me (done)
6. Messy task from Post 57.
7. Leland’s task from Post 73.

Ways to earn back forfeited orgasms:
1. Perform 150 edges per day for one week, with at least 2 weeks since last orgasm.
2. Spend a full week (Sunday to Saturday) without looking at any uncensored female nudity or exposed female genitals at all.

[Leland]

Really tidy and detailed, I appreciate the care, nice work.
And 55-57 is a LOT of edges, I'm now getting worried you will end your predicament too easily and too soon

A little innocent misunderstanding: when I said "the first time" I meant the first day you decided to do edges with a mouthful of piss. I already knew you did it in the past because you have a pee drinking task in your PM dares, that I even sent it to you few days ago. And it also sounds like you didn't prepare in advance your bladder so you did those 3 edges with normal pee that is usually too strong, almost as the morning one.

I'm pleased for the effort, you made in harder than required for two different reasons (stronger pee and refusing the extra points) and so I will respect your self sacrifice! You love humiliation so much that you keep subconsciously putting yourself in the worst outcomes possible whenever you can. I think it's hilarious.

Now you are overloaded with edges, rules and tasks (I'm also waiting for the TINY from the PM dares I sent), so we can relax now and you can find your pace to slowly dig your escape from the trap you fell in. Every now and then I will add some annoying easy rules just to spice things up (like use only your other hand for your next 10 edges; no edges for the next 24 hours; etc) and some optional games like the pic gamble.

Good luck, enjoy, ruin, and don't free yourself too fast, please!

[footlover.london]

Given my aspiration to update you all a little more frequently, I thought I would let you know about my weekend antics.

For those interested in the numbers only since my last proper update, I have edged 47 more times and gained 34 Leland Points (as I’ve decided to label them). Needless to say, I have not had an orgasm.

For those interested in my activities themselves, please read on.

First, and briefly, I did manage to get in 10 more edges (and ten more points) after my post on Friday. These were all to either my censored porn or self made videos and pictures. There weren’t any bonus points for this but I felt this was the right thing to do.

I actually had quite a lot of alone time on Saturday but I was acutely aware that my pace of point accumulation was concerning (and maybe disappointing) Leland who, though wanting me desperate, is also keen to keep me denied for a long time. So, to cut to the chase, I spent lots of time on Saturday doing tasks that didn’t necessarily accumulate (many) points. Speed bumps, if you will.

In total on Saturday I completed 24 edges (a lot, but could have been double or triple this easily) but only earned 14 Leland points. Part of that difference was because some edges were to uncensored porn (so I got a 3 edge penalty). But plenty went on besides.

The first ‘time wasting’ activity I pursued was to spend an hour censoring more of my porn collection - albeit getting three bonus points (but no edges) in the process. This is both enjoyable and frustrating for me. As I mentioned previously, this is very difficult to do while actually edging. But, it was only while completing a full hour without being allowed to touch that I realised how much I ordinarily tickle and tease my maggot occasionally during the process as, despite being very horny and frustrated, I spent nearly the whole hour soft and tiny. I did, though, manage to complete the censoring of my next complete video set (version with just breasts and pussy censored as well as one with feet censored too). Leland has now reviewed my censored porn collection - a special privilege so please don’t ask - which I think confirmed the suspicion (quite conclusively) that I am a weird and pathetic loser. But one hour consumed, soft and tiny, for just three points.

Talking of soft and tiny, Leland had (before my denial ordeal was even conceived) sent me some PM dares to do which I had still not tackled. So, again, I thought this was an opportune time. The first task was to send a picture of my TINY maggot and send to Leland. Keen to impress, I sent four pictures and tried to impress even more by writing Leland on my maggot. Alas, it isn’t big enough for that so I had to write three letters on each side. I think Leland was impressed by the writing effort. My maggot itself hasn’t been commented on. That probably tells me something I already knew….

The next ordeal I was tasked with was to tie my balls tightly for ten minutes. I have done this a number of times before and tried to do a good job, not just of having my balls and maggot tied tightly individually (including with a rubber band) but also separating my balls individually. I think I did a good job…I had that horrible aching and pinching pain, especially once my maggot started to awaken such that everything got tighter. And the slight bruises I have on my maggot still today suggest there was adequate suffering,

Though there was more suffering besides! Once my ten minutes tied was complete (I did a bit longer), I was then told to SLAP my maggot ten times then, once done, slap my balls ten times too. As I may have mentioned previously, I really do dislike (verging on a limit) anything more than fairly mild pain. The maggot slaps (while mostly hard) were difficult but tolerable (I did 11 in total) but the ball slaps / smacks really did take my breath away. After a few pauses, though, these too were completed (I did 11 too). Very, very challenging but I managed it.

Something else was also happening during this time too. Some important. A Piss de Resistance, if you will…

That is, an hour or so before I even started the censoring, I rolled two dice, as instructed by Leland’s PM, requiring me to drink four glasses of water and hold this in for four hours. The penalty…drink it.

By this point, I was around 3 hours in and starting to feel quite in need. Truth be told, I probably could have managed it. But, I know what Leland really wanted. And, more selfishly, I also knew I had to edge and doing so with a full bladder increases the risk of going too far.

So, instead, I accepted my fate as a Piss Slut for Leland. Knelt on the floor, I positioned a glass under my maggot and, after a nervous start, filled with Golden Nectar. Already I felt totally vulnerable and pathetic. But…I knew what was next. After a brief pause to consider, I raised the luke warm glass to my lips and proceeded to gulp down. I was surprised how quickly I drank it. And, if I’m honest, I also found it more tolerable than my mouthfuls the previous day. Maybe it was less strong. Or maybe I’m adapting to my Piss Slut status. The shame was, nevertheless, immediate and irrepressible.

The penultimate PM task was to complete 10 edges which I then completed. I say penultimate because I also need to snap a rubber band on the end of my maggot (hard) twice. Despite pleading on my part, given the pain, Leland has insisted I try and, while I have not yet done this, I will when feasible.

With all of the above PM tasks I took the voluntary measure of not counting anything towards my Leland Points total. This seemed like the right and respectful thing to do as a Beta given the opportunity of attention. So lots of suffering for little gain.

As a small but important aside, all of the above (except the edges) was recorded and videos sent to Leland (special privileges). Leland will also before long be given access to my back catalogue of humiliating pictures and videos (again a special privilege) which, itself, has consumed more alone time that ordinarily I would have used edging like the Beta Slut I am.

So, that was Saturday. Today (so far) has been more straightforward. I haven’t had as much time alone but started the day completing ten edges to totally censored porn (that is breasts, pussy and feet). So ten complete points. I also edges three times to uncensored porn later which, under the rules, accrued no points today. The day is not entirely over so I am hoping to add a few more points but I suspect I won’t go wild.

This has been a lot update…they probably won’t all be but a lot has happened and I felt it was important to provide some insight into my suffering, denial and torment. Hopefully you have also picked up that I genuinely want to impress.

Leland…thank you for your PM dares and for your attention to my denial so far. It is challenging but valued. I hope you are pleased by the slower pace of point accumulation in the past couple of days.

I am considering some system whereby Leland (and othe friends maybe) can add PM dares every so often so act as further ‘speedbumps’ if you feel I have made progress too quickly. Though this would need some safeguards…both on frequency and number / time taken of tasks.

As an aside, did my roulette style opportunity idea progress any further? I’m not sure if conversion occurred off-thread.

As always, any additional tasks and challenges are welcome. Update on my counts etc below.

Counts:
Date of last orgasm: 29 April 2024.
Edges since last orgasm: 185.
Leland Edges: 102.
Leland task credits: 91.
Most edges in one day: 190.
Orgasms during 2024: 8/22 (was 25)
Total 2024 edges: 4,299.

Rules:
1. Stroke 100 times while hard before first pee each day (failing means can’t use this toilet for a day).
2. Time between next orgasm must be longer than between last (or orgasm counts as 2).
3. All cum must be eaten.
4. Must edge (at least) once on Monday, twice Tuesday… If a day is missed then do double the next day (plus the missed edges).
5. Ten seconds of no touch foot porn for each edge.
6. All orgasms to censored porn (or count as 2).
7. All orgasms in February count as double.
8. No cumming during November.

Tasks:
1. Dice game for one orgasm. When I want to cum I must roll a dice and edge that number of times. I then roll a second: if this is lower than the first, edge this number of times and I am denied. If higher, then edge the dice count again and roll a third time: one or two means I ruin (still counts as orgasm); three or more and I can cum freely.
2. Chew worn socks each evening before bed until next orgasm (done).
3. One orgasm while fucking or licking a toilet seat (done).
4. One orgasm while fucking a desert - cake, trifle, eclaires etc. which I then eat up hands free.
5. During my weekend, alone, to spend at least three hours continuously erect with anyone able to check on me (done)
6. Messy task from Post 57.
7. Leland’s task from Post 73.

Ways to earn back forfeited orgasms:
1. Perform 150 edges per day for one week, with at least 2 weeks since last orgasm.
2. Spend a full week (Sunday to Saturday) without looking at any uncensored female nudity or exposed female genitals at all.

[Leland]

"Leland Points" is so dumb that makes me chuckle every time.

Psychology 101: we project outside our inner world, what we do is what we are. Your collection is totally weird and useless, a tasteless waste of space and time... and so are you. Science confirms your bland worthless existence. A parasite, an imp, a sad reminder of all that's wrong in the world and in the way towards a perfect sane society...

The ball slaps were a great experimental drum music piece. You should become a musician and travel the world slapping those balls live on stage for hours.

Your maggot... I didn't want to be too honest... but since you insist... it's not small like a real maggot, a bug that can also be seen as cute for its simple symmetry... no. Your thing is just... weird. Something gross and crooked that came out of a Lovecraft novel. It's definitely unique! Be proud of that... I guess.

And the piss slut trasformation... sorry for saying that you are useless. I was wrong. You are becoming a very useful and efficient urinal. I could never make fun of you for doing such disgusting but honest work.

About the optional games... of course we will do them every now and then. Deathwing initially suggested one every month and you also asked for a max of a dare per week because... life. But now you sound very thirsty and needy for more immediately... slow down, edge and suffer in silence for a few days... you have plenty of options and rules to play with already.

PS Nice detailed update, well done letting everyone know how you spend your time...

[footlover.london]

A quick update for Leland….but there is now even more insight into just what a Beta Loser I am in that special place. Some may be monotonous…and lots of little things so can be a bit annoying to view. But there are some larger insights.

I hope you enjoy and gain even more insight into me / leverage over my suffering

[Leland]

Ain't that a sight!?
An endless stream of very bad ideas... the same embarassing animal brazenly showing off again and again. The shock and disgust and rejection of those around you really turns you on, right? Good thing I love psychological horror movies and twisted damaged minds...

Laugh at me, condemn me, punish me, but acknowledge my existence!

I have seen just a small part so far... I want to buy a new monitor and burn this one...
I'll take a break from this punishment you sent me... I'm not that strong!

And you deserve to suffer with me... as soon as possible have a session of 20 edges done looking at the folder of shame. I know, it will be VERY hard, but try. You can be smart and try to focus on the porn scenes that appear in the background of some of the photos and videos. Still, VERY HARD, sorry! :P

...I like the mask and black outfit mercifully covering you...

[footlover.london]

Thank you Leland, for your healthy dose of criticism and honesty

You are, of course, completely correct

I may not have a chance to complete the 20 edges you requested in one sitting until the end of this week. But if a chance arises before then (may be able to tomorrow evening) then I will prioritise this (and not claim any points for this).

[Leland]

You can split them in 4 sessions of 5 edges if can help you start your new task sooner.
Pick a different file for every edge... luckily you have plenty to choose from.
In any case, take your time, there is no time limit for those edges.

BUT I want you to take all the points they are worth because you MUST be rewarded for such sad, unpleasant and shameful task... A well deserved positive conditioning for the loyal Pavlov mutt you are!

[footlover.london]

Leland - your compassion is admirable. Thank you.

Slut may have an opportunity to complete 5 today maybe but I think it will be possible tomorrow evening to compete all 20 together. Slut will see but is grateful for your flexibility.

I’m surprised the section of my special folder beginning with ‘P’ hasn’t attracted your attention more. But, on that theme, I savoured my first morning Pee today (three mouthfuls held for three edges rather than chugging as I held an edge, unfortunately). It was truly horrendous. I couldn’t believe how much worse it tasted than the other pee on previous days. I don’t think it will become a habit!

[Leland]

Told you: I started at the top and then had to take a break after a fast short gaze at everything... the folder is in alphabetical order so the good "P" files are at the bottom. A treat that I will enjoy for sure.

Morning pee is absolutely horrible... one of the worst punishments I can imagine. But drinking it every now and then is important to remember how pee can be both a great pleasure and the worst pain and to understand how magnificent can be when very light. Next time you will drink pee (even lighter than the one you showed me), you will probably love it more than ever before.

A great experience that made you grow and closer to become a complete piss slut!

[footlover.london]

A little update, since I know you enjoy. After my last post late on Sunday evening, I actually didn't proceed to edge any more. Maybe I had drink too much, and was easily distracted, but in any case I just spent my time posting and occasionally teasing. So horny, and frustrating, but for no gain.

There is a half truth in that. After midnight but before going to bed, I decided to 'force' myself to compete 3 edges to uncensored (aka normal) porn. Three only....knowing of course that these wouldn't count towards my Leland points under the rules.

After a sleep, Monday was much more productive on points. Because I am desperate to please, I began by trying something that has been talked about a lot in another thread - drinking my first pee of the day.

It can't be that bad? It was! Having pissed into a glass I immediately noticed the darker tone and stronger scent. But I had prepared myself and was going to see this through. I took my first mouthful and, starting with my maggot completely unaroused, held the piss in my mouth while starting to build to the edge. As I mentioned before, the inability to breathe deeply seems to mean this happens quicker than normal (I should mention I was using fully censored porn). But I was so aware of every second. That dull bitterness and penetrating scent. And with my breathing so forced through my nose, I felt raw and animalistic (not in a powerful way). Upon reaching the edge and making sure it went no further, I swallowed. The aftertaste was so, so horrific. Musty, bitter, dank and rotten. So horrible. I repeated twice more, finishing the glass. I was so desperate to just get it over with.

Needless to say, this won’t become a regular feature of my suffering (I hope). But, for those keeping track, Monday so far had 6 edges for 6 Leland points.

The rest of the day was quite patchy. I wasn’t totally alone but managed to sneak off every so often and so snuck in another 20 edges! The content was mixed but I did force myself to use some TS porn (no offence intended if wrong labelling etc) as well as some censored porn. I also passed 7,200 posts so gained another 10 Leland points.

So….Monday’s total….26 edges and 36 Leland points.

Today (Tuesday) started in an unusual way. To take a step back, most days since this thread has begun, I have started the day off with 5-6 edges. Just to bank them in. Eagle eyed followers will also see that I must edge 20 times to files in my “special folder” of exposed pictures that Leland has seen.

This had a strange effect on me. While I knew I could start the day edging as normal….Leland had not been pressuring about the 20 special edges….I somehow felt this was unfair. Like I didn’t deserve to earn edges and points. Not hard to trace that feeling of repression and being inadequate and undeserving I guess.

But I also knew I didn’t have time to complete the 20 edges. The solution? Instead, I just sat for 15 minutes stroking my maggot at a moderate pace and without stopping while starting at PMV style video of women in bikinis and lingerie (Boutine LA for reference). Just staring and stroking….fast enough to be totally aroused and engrossed but not so fast that I approached an edge (I actively avoided as if to further deny myself). Just sat, for 15 minutes, mindlessly stroking without the brief moments of excitement and relief of an edge. Vacantly gooning, numb and dumb, without a single edge. And not a single Leland point. Just frustrated and with nothing to show for it.

I had done this in the past but not often and I think I’ve even given it out as a forfeit before. Bit somehow the frustration seemed fair…I hadn’t suffered enough to edge or gain I points. My pit of denial and frustration grows ever deeper.

But this evening I knew I had time alone. So what else would a depraved slut do? Of course…I write here now, still naked, having spent the past half an hour (maybe more) edging 20 times to pictures and videos in my folder of shame, at Leland’s request. Endlessly confronting my angry and desperate cock being teased and edged over past years to my many superiors. Videos and pictures of me as a slutty sissy, desperate to impress. Me beating my maggot, physically and mentally. Me covering myself in slime. Me pissing over my face and drinking it. Edging over and over to the proof that I am a total loser.

Edge number 14 and 15 were probably a low point. For the 14th (I had to use a different file for each edge) I was edging to a video of me fucking a toilet seat while watching TS porn. Then….15….me edging to a mistress fucking a guy with a strap on. But while these were probably the hardest…with it feeling like I had done so much but still with 5 to go….the most shameful were videos where I was simple edging to me stroking my cock. No excuse that I was glimpsing at porn in shot. Simply getting aroused by my own pathetic cock.

One additional feature that I imposed on myself was to start with the largest videos I have and sort them in descending order. This meant that, with each edge, the videos generally got shorter. Videos 17-19 were again short versions of me fucking a toilet seat (and cumming too) but…by this point, some of the videos were just 20 seconds long. This meant that, I couldn’t tentatively edge and carefully stop to avoid going too far. It was a race….with a high risk of cumming to myself in some of my most pathetic states. Rather fittingly, the final video was of my cock simply leaking and oozing pre cum (with me swallowing) after an edging session in the past.

While I have some more alone time left this evening…so will undoubtedly indulge the depths of my depravity more….i thought this was a good time for an update. Ok…I’ve made 20 Leland points today (and added 20 edges)….but under circumstances that I would never choose. And, even when I had choice this morning, I could bear to enjoy myself.

The mind is a powerful thing…and it’s clear that your actions and control are extending well beyond the tasks you give me. I am living my torment. Thank you for making me confront my worthlessness.


As always, any additional tasks and challenges are welcome. Update on my counts etc below.

Counts:
Date of last orgasm: 29 April 2024.
Edges since last orgasm: 231.
Leland Edges: 48.
Leland task credits: 157.
Most edges in one day: 190.
Orgasms during 2024: 8/22 (was 25)
Total 2024 edges: 4,345.

Rules:
1. Stroke 100 times while hard before first pee each day (failing means can’t use this toilet for a day).
2. Time between next orgasm must be longer than between last (or orgasm counts as 2).
3. All cum must be eaten.
4. Must edge (at least) once on Monday, twice Tuesday… If a day is missed then do double the next day (plus the missed edges).
5. Ten seconds of no touch foot porn for each edge.
6. All orgasms to censored porn (or count as 2).
7. All orgasms in February count as double.
8. No cumming during November.

Tasks:
1. Dice game for one orgasm. When I want to cum I must roll a dice and edge that number of times. I then roll a second: if this is lower than the first, edge this number of times and I am denied. If higher, then edge the dice count again and roll a third time: one or two means I ruin (still counts as orgasm); three or more and I can cum freely.
2. Chew worn socks each evening before bed until next orgasm (done).
3. One orgasm while fucking or licking a toilet seat (done).
4. One orgasm while fucking a desert - cake, trifle, eclaires etc. which I then eat up hands free.
5. During my weekend, alone, to spend at least three hours continuously erect with anyone able to check on me (done)
6. Messy task from Post 57.
7. Leland’s task from Post 73.

Ways to earn back forfeited orgasms:
1. Perform 150 edges per day for one week, with at least 2 weeks since last orgasm.
2. Spend a full week (Sunday to Saturday) without looking at any uncensored female nudity or exposed female genitals at all.

[Leland]

So desperate to please that you forced yourself to drink your morning pee... one of the worst punishing dares I can imagine giving...

I hope you added the 6 points for the morning pee. Totally deserved. And definitely not enough to reward such a superb humiliating act... from now on, a full glass of morning pee is worth 8 points! Sounds like a treat but... it's not...

I should dare you to become an astronaut and you'd probably do it just to please me!
Hilarious.

Idea... I'll dare you to do something healthy for a change of pace. So your task is to do 1 full hour of jogging/bike/sport/home exercise... you decide what exactly. This is in addition to any similar activity you normally do. Do it within sunday to gain 3 points. You can also do 1 hour of walking in the woods or a nice park, but it's worth only 1 point in this case. If you feel exploring, do it without underwear for 2 more points.

Boring? Yes, It's just an optional experiment about control... and you can recover from your horrible task of having to edge to the worst and saddest porn ever. Great job, sounds like you loved hating it... and as always you made it harder on yourself... your folder will definitely come back in future tasks.