[Non-Fiction] An ongoing diary of edging

[L.Coubert]

I arrived at my parents house on the 19th. I may have cum that morning, I may have not, I don't remember. After a few days here of doing nothing sensual I started to masturbate in the shower one morning. I began to remember my days of edging, something I have not done properly for a long time, and thought about how fun it would be to try that for a while here. So I just brought myself to the edge a few times and then left it. However I found it hard to stop touching myself, and kept excusing myself to go to the bathroom, never letting myself cum, and it was then I decided to set myself the challenge of not cuming until I return to London.

I got hotter and hotter thinking about how worked up I'd be after 11 days without an orgasm, and all my old fantasies about tying myself up with a vibrator forcing me to cum over and over came flooding back. I got so hot I ordered some new toys, including a magic wand which I felt might be the key to my long sort for prostate orgasm. Especially combined with all this abstinence.

On top of this I've given up porn for a while. It's made me much more sensual. But last night I gave in and watched some in bed, I was basically on edge for the whole time I was watching it. And then, when I decided to stop, I couldn't help bringing myself to the edge again and again, until I was finally too exhausted to continue. I woke up still hard and edged again and again, and more in the shower. I feel so close to orgasm all the time and I don't want to stop touching myself.

This is why I decided to write to you guys for a little support, and if you were interested to keep a diary of my last few days of struggle. Something to keep me on the straight and narrow.

Right now Im fighting not to feel myself through my jeans here in the living room...

[L.Coubert]

I will be going to bed in a little while if there are any dares for the night...

[L.Coubert]

Also an update for the first night home. I believe I will start by tying my hands to the bed with a timer for a few hours so that I can't touch myself, and force myself to watch some porn during this. Just to really get me ready..

[L.Coubert]

Soooo, no one seems to be interested but I'll post anyway.

Last night was interesting. I went to bed at 12 and edged for about an hour. I hadn't intended too, but I found I couldn't stop my hands. Every time I thought I'd finished, I'd roll over only to find my hands still relentlessly bringing myself to the edge again and again. I now have a genuine fear of cumming to contend with as well, because if I do it will render this whole process pointless.

I dreamed of being bound and edging. I woke up at 5am rock hard, and you guessed it, had to play with myself for a while before I could sleep again. I tried to distract myself by planning my return, and I can up with the following to start with.

My bed has a slatted base. I had the idea of tying myself face down so that my dick went through the slats, this would make it impossible for me to grind against anything and bring myself off. Maybe a cock ring would be a good idea too? I could then put the laptop under the bed and see it from there. The final piece de resistance would be a prostate massager, the back handle of which would be tied to my hair, with the slats around my head removed meaning that if I rested my head I'd be putting pressure on my prostate. I'm still wondering about how long my release mechanism should be set for... I haven't really done anything like this before much, so I don't know how much frustration I could take. Maybe 3 hours?

And then it's on to the second course, which is still up for discussion...

[hornycu7boy]

Keep writing this, I like it.

[Slave_E]

I like it as well. Go on...