loosing my self-esteem

[lilcurious]

hi all,

so let's start an experiment here. i'm pretty much addicted to get objectified. i can't tell you why.. maybe it's braking my pride, preventing me from being the person i sometimes dream of to be.. and/or being afraid to be.. not tough enough to be.. or because it's just impossible to be..

so - virtually i want to loose here the rest of any selfesteem i have. any pride has to go.

as i really don't have any experience how to to that, and what has an impact on myself.. i'd try to give that out of my hands.. asking you experienced people out there.

you don't have to think much about limits at first. i'm too old to get shocked.. and anything else what i get to know and don't like i'll try to add in my signature.

in the beginning, i'd love to try how i react to mostly verbal input.
so write me and try to hit the nerve. i will answer my reaction and maybe it's a little reward for you too.

[lilcurious]

i got a message from a visitor here and want to share a little here in public:

he wrote i should try being a desk.. among some other examples.

this is what i made with it:

Thinking about object training: ..being a desk..
i got an idea: i am sitting on my desk at work right now and alone in my room. so i will put away my chair and get on all fours being the chair for this desk myself ..for a minute.
.... *doing now*
well, it was a degrading experience ..for a while at least. kneeling there waiting for the owner of the chair to sit on my back - or my ass, my shoulders? bearing his weight ..looking only at his feet.. or hers!!?
i'm trying to think of other chores for me to do.. being of use for others.. without being too explicit. maybe i'll stick to the more imaginary things i can do for my own for the moment.
for the beginning it was a exciting experience so far.. thank you for that!

[lilcurious]

being some furniture in my office was a trilling experience. i'd love to improve here..
other places around would be the kitchen in the office, we have toilets for men/women..

recent experiences:

furniture:

i was made to be a "box". in the corner of my office on all fours i had to hold some folders on top of the "box".. so i had to place them somewhere on my back. additionally i should store some "office-items" in me.. the "box" - especially a marker and bulldog-clamps. i took paper clamps instead. these were to put on my nipples and the marker into my pussy. the box was standing (kneeling) in the corner this way for 5 minutes.
Two times a folder fell down - the box seems to be crooked a little. and the paperclamps slipped off too after a while, making the box squirm a little (that was the reason for one folder falling down)

it was really a demanding and exciting task.. i'd love to have more!

degradation:

someone called me an idiot, because of my poor spelling capabilities and my awful punctuation.
..followed by calling me an old, used up, 37 year old whore. just good enough to be abused as a cheap sex object, because no one else want's me anymore. and thus why i should be kept in a basement and being used as a whore for free. ..meaning i should be raped all the time.

so.. i have to say, i'm definitely into degradation things, because "he" was right. i instantly was wetting myself reading his verbal attacks to my person.

[T5P]

Become a foot stool for a day, but dont leave yourself cluttering up the place. Neatly pack yourself away in a cupboard or something for at least 8 hours that day. It doesnt have to be continuous but you must be kneeling.

[lilcurious]

Originally Posted by T5P

Become a foot stool for a day, but dont leave yourself cluttering up the place. Neatly pack yourself away in a cupboard or something for at least 8 hours that day. It doesnt have to be continuous but you must be kneeling.

hello,
thank you for your reply.
the task is somewhat out of bounds. i'd love to do things at work - mostly alone in my office and at home, where i have short periods of time being alone.

being a footstool..

well, i'd take it as a mixed imaginary and demanding task. i will try to place myself as a foot stool at work on different places on different occasions. as long as it's possible.
and when i meet a colleague i try to imagine serving him/her as a foot stool. looking at feet, shoes especially?, thinking about having them placed on my backside.. or me kneeling and the feet resting on my thigh?
i will think of other ways. thank you for the task!

[Carst4]

You should be a toilet brush.

Need next to the toilets at work, facing the wall for 10 minutes a day.

[lilcurious]

Originally Posted by lilcurious

so - virtually i want to loose here the rest of any selfesteem i have. any pride has to go.

so.. sitting at work, being responsible, the appropriate manager and so on..
and begging someone who's making fun of me, telling him that i want to get lowered.. begging him to do that..
knowing what i've told him already about the ridiculous and disgusting things i already did.. not only what he wanted - no, i did some on top.
knowing that i'm not just degrading myself .. i beg for a chance to degrade myself.. the more the better. so desperate..

but somehow i feel: there's still pride in that form of self destruction.

i'm biting my lips writing this:
i wiped the mens toilet seats in the office with my bare tits - and not only the seat.. no, the bowl.. and i had fun with it!
and after that i flushed the toilet, my tit hanging into the bowl causing the water getting spoiled over my chest and i don't know where else. or maybe that was just a misplaced imagination, i don't know...
but that flushed my mind - i nearly was crying and fear was killing my mind.. and in that situation i was rubbing my cunt.. trembling.. but i coulnd't stop. couldn't stop dangling my tits against the bowl with my face kissing almost the lifted seat, risking to hit the bowl hard, because the one arm holding my bodyweight over the bowl was trembling like a ..i dont have words.
But i couldn't stop fucking my cunt with my other hand.. unable to cum.. i gave up after a while, tried to sort up me.. my things.. stumbling out of the restrooms in the end..

[Master.P]

Are you doing these things at work while others are there or after they have left? I will help you on your path to degradation to whatever level of extreme you desire. Simply let me know.

[lilcurious]

Originally Posted by Master.P

Are you doing these things at work while others are there or after they have left? I will help you on your path to degradation to whatever level of extreme you desire. Simply let me know.

well.. i tend to do things when it's not too crowded around.. depending on what i'm doing..
blocking the men's restrooms couldn't be the best idea after lunch, when everyone wants to go there shaking the snake ..or whatever

i will regret this - but feel free to share any idea. no matter if it has to do with my office.. or something completely else.

[vagus21]

At some point you could try becoming a urinal. Kneel naked in place where a urinal could go. A urinal is always ready to accept piss so you should have your eyes closed and your mouth open. Stay like that for as long as you dare.

[Master.P]

Let's just cut right to the chase. Are you wanting to lose all self-esteem or are you wanting to be an object of use by a group of people. Rather that object is something sexual or not is irrelevant?

[lilcurious]

Originally Posted by vagus21

At some point you could try becoming a urinal. Kneel naked in place where a urinal could go. A urinal is always ready to accept piss so you should have your eyes closed and your mouth open. Stay like that for as long as you dare.

i was playing with that thought already. there's a urinal. the floor around is.. a mess, as i've seen the last time i sneaked into..
being nude there.. outside the stalls.. i'm not shure if i'm tough enough. i'll go for that..

[meistercliff]

Originally Posted by lilcurious

well.. i tend to do things when it's not too crowded around.. depending on what i'm doing..
blocking the men's restrooms couldn't be the best idea after lunch, when everyone wants to go there shaking the snake ..or whatever

i will regret this - but feel free to share any idea. no matter if it has to do with my office.. or something completely else.

Here’s your supplementary Dare; you can do this in the men’s room a floor or two or two beneath your own company’s floor or just a club or men’s room in a restaurant for your degradation as a rehearsal for occupying your own company’s men’s room. Here’s the dress rehearsal Dare for you. Go into the mens room and strip naked in the booth. Unlock your toilet booth. Masturbate to edge and wait until a man opens your booth and make eye contact with him while masturbating and offer to suck him off or fuck him. If he shuts the door suck him off or let him fuck you after you put a condom on his cock. Tell him what a fuck slut whore you are fucking anyone who comes into your toilet booth . Be aware that you are just like the toilet brush, ready to clean up the mens cocks that come into the toilet. Report your exoeriences faithfully here.

[lovethembbw]

You can be a shoeshine, lick your shoes clean.
Can be a desk cleaner also, lick a part of your desk clean
Can be an ink pot, take a pen/marker, remove cap, insert in your ass as if you are getting ink to your ass, you may rotate inside the ass too. Now take out the marker/pen, imagine any part of your body (tits, belly, thighs etc) as canvas and write something
Make yourself a toilet brush holder, go to the toilet, take the brush, kneel down at the exact place, now, open your mouth and insert the brush handle inside mouth and then hold it by pressing with teeths and lip, as you are holding the brush. You can be a brush holder using ass too. Get on your four, ass up, insert the brush handle inside ass and rest part lean to the wall.
Be a door mat, lie flat in front of your door and imagine a person with very dirty shoe is standing on you and rubbing it on you to clean the dirt. You may replicate this by cleaning a dirty shoe by rubbing it all over your body
Become dishwasher, use your tits as scrubber to clean dish.
Become mop, drag your ass on the floor to clean it

[lilcurious]

Originally Posted by meistercliff

Here’s your supplementary Dare; you can do this in the men’s room a floor or two or two beneath your own company’s floor or just a club or men’s room in a restaurant for your degradation as a rehearsal for occupying your own company’s men’s room. Here’s the dress rehearsal Dare for you. Go into the mens room and strip naked in the booth. Unlock your toilet booth. Masturbate to edge and wait until a man opens your booth and make eye contact with him while masturbating and offer to suck him off or fuck him. If he shuts the door suck him off or let him fuck you after you put a condom on his cock. Tell him what a fuck slut whore you are fucking anyone who comes into your toilet booth . Be aware that you are just like the toilet brush, ready to clean up the mens cocks that come into the toilet. Report your exoeriences faithfully here.

well.. that seems to stay as a mind-thrill..