I feel like I'm too fat, and I just don't look as girly/feminine as I would like. I want to start living as myself or my gender, but it's difficult to make that jump, even though everyone already knows and I look "decent" I guess.
I just want to be more slim/petite and cute, not like I am.
I'm doing about the same as always or as one would expect I think. I just dislike my appearance and stuff. I ordered some pills from the internet that reduce appetite and stuffs, but has some side effects like jitters/anxiety/fast heartbeat.