Sir's toy would have never thought she'd do something like this

When Sir's toy entered the world of online BDSM, she had to establish a starting point for her likes and dislikes and limits with what she knew about herself, even if it would be subjected to modification with more experience and discovery. The people she played with needed something to work with and she needed something to protect her.

Sir's toy considered humiliation a limit while doing so, she knew she wasn't turned on by feeling humiliated or called names or degraded.

But with time Sir's toy started realizing there were some small things that could be considered humiliating that she was turned on by. She also learned that the same thing could feel different based on the person doing it to you. She enjoyed some things coming from her own Dom while other things felt worse if it was coming from her Dom and easier to take from a stranger.

Sir's toy started to understand that humiliation wasn't really black or white for her, it was a grey area that she's still exploring and learning, very cautiously. It's quite tricky because when it's not something Sir's toy can enjoy, it's usually something that hurts her deeply.

Sir's toy sometimes prefers to explore it with strangers in case it goes wrong, to not resent her Dom for it, because strangers can be forgotten about. Sir's toy wonders if it's partly the reason he made her address herself like this on GD and with others but she can still use first person pronouns when talking to Sir.

Sir's toy doesn't know if it's because of this way of speech, or if it's because Sir was leaving for a day so she will miss him, but yesterday she managed to do something really different and new for her. It might not sound like much to most here, but to her it was a pretty big deal.

Sir's toy got the courage to buy a collar from an animal store for herself. It was an incredibly embarrassing experience, even if only she knew that it was for her. She bought a piece of "jewelry" for herself in the middle of leashes and muzzles and that's such a funny thing to do.

To make matters worse, the guy working at the store told Sir's toy that she must own a female (animal/dog) because Sir's toy picked a pink color for herself. Sir's toy had to nod yes and lie, she hates lying but she had no choice, she felt so embarrassed.

Sir's toy can't believe she did this. She really went out of her comfort zone.

Sir's toy fell asleep wearing the collar, because it comforted her and made her feel owned and that feeling hugged her soul, she needed it after she said goodbye to Sir for a day.