I've been wearing diapers since I was born and I stand by it today, it wasn't always like that, I used to hate diapers and everything that had to do with them. i was born with a piece of open back, which caused nerve damage in my spine and caused bladder incontinence, i am wet very often every night and every day. At that time I was the only diaper wearer in the whole school, mocking and Hanselein were the order of the day. Classmates teased me, called me baby and trouser pisser. At home there was my...

Breath play
Breath play has always been something that I have said was outside my risk profile, however, I have always found porn with themes of breath play really hot. Lately I have been fantasizing about exploring breath play just a bit irl. Maybe I would be sitting at my computer, doing some work, and he would appear and with the simple command "hold your breath", I would stop breathing and wait desperately for him to allow me to take a breath. An even more exciting scenario is being...

For anybody who knows me to any degree, probably knows that I have always wanted a puppy. I even wrote a blog about it here.

However, for some reason the grown ups in my life have always voted against me and told me that I am not old enough (even though that is complete BS since I am a responsible grown up!) Instead, I have been blessed with three kitties, out Pasta Cats.

(Spaghetti, Fettucine & Penne)

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I have struggled to write this blog for over a week now. I am still numb but also very deeply hurt. After 2.5 years, Gerbil.boy and I are no longer together.

I don't regret loving him. I don't hate him. I don't think I ever could. But knowing that I had invested more in the relationship than he ever could, and that the decision to walk away from me seemed to come so easily to him ... it hurts.

I wouldn't change the fact that I gave my heart to him. It's what I do. I wear...

I was recently asked if I could update my toy list so I figured it is about time so here we go

Dildos:
- Large vibrating dildo complete with balls
- Regular suction cup that bends
- Large purple one (can be attached to my strapon harness

Vibrators:
- Small hitachi magic wand
- Small vibrator set with interchangeable styles
- 3 Bullet vibrators of different sizes

Anal:
- Lovesense Hush 2 1.75in
- Large...

My report on a dare I was given to do while on holiday.

The dare I was given - You must go for a walk on a sunny day following a proper public footpath. You must be wearing tight fitting briefs as underwear. At some point of the walk you must remove your trousers/shorts and put them in your bag. Then you must walk a minimum of 2 miles in just your underpants and a T-Shirt. A few conditions to add-:

You are not allowed to go off the proper path for any reason.
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*trigger warning - self harm*

Sometimes life can feel overwhelming. It's been a bumpy road - as life is. The beginning of this year has been extra bumpy.

I have had to be brave, strong, dependant, responsible and all adulty for a long time. The emotions have built up. Between work and home it seems to be never ending. I am constantly in the driver's seat. I crave release.

Today is Mother's Day and it is such a hard day for me. But I haven't shared that with...