Recently I got to spend some time coloring with my amazing Asslvr. I had won an hour of coloring with him as a deal during one of our first deal or no deal games. I was so excited because I knew that it was something he didn't really want to do.

You may remember that I recently got a new coloring book. My first "little" task was to go to the store and pick one out. I actually was so excited that I picked out and bought two, but one was clearly my favorite. It had sea...

Normally I would be done now with the punishment Mr. Blue gave me, but Master and Mistress were not done with me yet.

Well, I had crawled into a ball, and while the orgasmic waves still rush through my body Mistress slowly pulled the cucumber out of my ass, made me reach another peak with ease. Master twisted my clit gently and asked if I want some more, like a slut would. But I hesitated and told him that it was too much for me to handle. I was stuttering and panting, not because I was...

When I sat down to write this blog, it was meant to be about being selfish and how that can sometimes be a good thing. But I think I will leave that topic for another day.

I am sitting here, at my desk at work and I am cold. I am hungry. I have a headache. I am exhausted. I have a lump in my throat that I don't think will disappear until I allow myself to cry ... but I can't cry. I cried too many tears last week.

I feel like a zombie. I feel all of those things that I...

I'd never even thought of the so-called "sissy name" (I don't really like being called a sissy but that's for another blog) before I joined GetDare, and my initial reaction was to dismiss it as a bit of silliness. They barely seemed to get used and just seemed like a cute idea that I couldn't see having any real effect on the sub. Even though I was pretty sure my Mistress would want to label me with something I was pretty sure it'd have no effect on me. How wrong was I?

My...

I have a new favorite story book. It is called "The Gruffalo" written by Julia Donaldson & Axel Scheffler.

It is so good! and it rhymes! Which makes it even better.

It starts with a mouse who goes for a walk in the deep dark wood, and he comes across a fox who thinks he looks good. The mouse is able to scare the fox away because he...

Warning, this is not going to be a cheery blog...

I am finding things quite tough at the moment, so thought maybe writing about it may help in some way, although I'm not sure it really will.

I hope this will make some kind of coherent sense, as I'm not very good at writing this kind of thing.

All my life I have been very shy, never having any confidence in social situations, not being able to interact in a normal way with people. I have since discovered...

As I sit here and write this, my chest is still tight. It hurts to breathe. I have started this blog about 10 times now and wiped everything that I have written. The truth is, I really don't know how to describe the feelings that are happening inside me.

The thing is, I thought I was doing better. It has been awhile since I have had such a flare up in anxiety. It has been years and years since I have had more than one anxiety attack in a week.

I have no explanation for...