Arrrrggg Confusion!!!!!!!

I thought my feelings for melanie were gone, but i found out tonight they were hidden because i never seen her this weekend. I started talking about her and they came rushing back. I was talking to her cousin emma. And she told me that melanie was trying to get over her "frigidness" for me because she was scared that i was mad at her about the whole kiss incident! WHY CANT GIRLS JUST SPEAK THERE FUCKING MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!