Yep 1 year without a full orgasm, I certainly appreciate them more now! (Even the embarrassing ones). I'm not sure you really experience any new feelings after 2-3 months if I'm honest other than the continual challenge of trying to prolong it.

Thanks for the kind comment. I have to admit toilet play is something I'd be keener to do if the clean up wasn't often so bad. At the moment it's a vague interest but something I think I'd like.

Yep, I do! I have 1 drawer in my room that's private and it's very full along with the hidden bit behind. I have had anxiety dreams about it though so it does bother me, particularly when I first started buying them but I feel more comfortable with it now (the level of enjoyment vs low risk now of anyone going routing makes logical sense to me, even if my subconscious occasionally freaks out).

I did not know that...but definitely knew that I think feminisation is something I'd like to push more still even if it's hard to go much further so maybe you can help me get even girlier yet

O, I'm back denied now so can't really try but yes I'll try to edge or at least get closer by anal when I'm denied. Definitely, something I want to do but probably can't (or just need to find the perfect toy/angle or something).

Thanks, glad you like them. When I do get feedback or reports people usually enjoy the dares I give so I should probably worry less. I won't ever be perfect of course as that's impossible but I'm still definitely learning (which is exciting) and do really enjoy the reports/live sessions I do.

I've dropped that one. It's not that it takes a lot of effort per se but seems hard to motivate myself to do while being unowned somehow (oddly it was one of my favourite rules as it proved to be a constant reminder of my ownership through the day, probably another reason to drop it for now).

Thanks for the kind words you two (plus others in private). I'm less raw & emotional about it this week so I think time will be the almighty healer. Although I'm already itching to write an ad & start my search I'm forcing myself to take the time to really think what I want (plus really get over it properly). Thanks for the blog Butterfly, I read it at the time but didn't really think I'd be making use of it so quickly.

Hehe but I do! However, events seem to be conspiring against me. I had a cold, then split from Sexyred and now feel like I've got another cold today (which was my planned orgasm day but I just feel too yucky). Sexyred may not be denying me but the universe is conspiring against me for a bit longer (after all this time I want at least the first to be special).