Have you ever met a person who just draws you in? It's as if your energy is attracted to theirs. You can't resist getting closer. You feel helpless as you are pulled towards them.

That is how I am feeling today.

I have been talking to a local Dom. He is very nice, handsome, well known in the kink community. He makes very pretty floggers (I will post photos of my new rainbow one soon). His interests line up pretty closely with my curiosities.

We have been...

First time I sucked a dick. Ah yes. I was in 8th grade, about 13 years old. It was about this time that I was questioning my sexuality and gender.

I was secretly crossdressing and wanted a friend I could confide in. My next door nieghbors (who were twins, the kind that look different) hung out with me a lot. So I got an idea.

I would "accidentally" let one of them see that I was wearing panties by pulling them into a small wedgie and hiking up the back of my...

Hey people, i really am sorry that i have been inactive this past... week or 2

I had vacation and really needed some time

But also i have some good news
I sortof had my first time last weekend
And it was awesome

Only i diddnt really fit that good
U_U im cursed of being big

But i.will make a.post about that soon
Also one thing is sure, i have a irl pet now *smiles*
Anyway hold on tight for more info later!!...

This week I really feel like I am failing ...

I have been taking hormones this week again, hoping to get ready for making a baby. They are awful honestly. They make me grumpy, emotional, nauseous and give me headaches. They also tend to make my blood sugar numbers surge. And that is a problem because I cannot get approval for fertility treatment unless my blood sugars are within target. So it is a frustrating never-ending cycle.

I am talking with a new potential Dom. We...

Today is worm Jaro's birthday! We know that Jaro loves feet, so we thought we would use ours to wish him a happy birthday:



For Jaro's birthday, I have ordered him a new stroker and a very special ball stretcher trainer kit. They have been delivered to me and I will be using them with him when he comes to visit. I might also have a few other surprises up my sleeve for when he gets here, but he doesn't get to know about those until...

Sometimes kinks can be soooooo confusing. It is bad enough that we get turned on by things that most people would find weird at best, and repulsive at worst. Who the hell knows why we get turned on by being peed on? or wearing diapers? or feet?

There are a few specific things that really leave my mind confuzled!

Denial
So, Denial is in my limits. It makes me so incredibly miserable if it is implemented for a few days, that I can barely function as a human being....

I love dogs. If I had the room/money I would have them ALLLLL. I was extremely sad when I had to rehome my german shepard about two years ago after she suddenly tried to bite my child for no reason.

Since then I have been on the search for a dog that is house trained, good with kids and still relatively young. For two years I have had no luck. All the ones I was interested in on social media sites either were no good with children or weren't the type of dog I wanted. The ones I volunteer...