I don't really make new year resolutions because I have learned over the years I give up on most of them by the end of January, despite my best efforts and intentions to follow them. I also started to question why I needed to make them as new year resloutions, why couldn't I better myself at any time throughout the year?

So for this coming year I do have goals and hopes but I have deliberately left them vauge enough to allow some leniency with them, whether that be because I am tired and...

.....When I choose to be.

I very much enjoy consensual non consent play and male superiority play. When Sir calls me a brainless cunt, or a worthless whore or tells me I am below him and am only a set of holes and tits I become extremely turned on. When Sir is rough and takes me without asking or has no regard for my comfort or wellbeing I am instantly wet. When Sir tells me all of the reasons I am below him, why I am worth nothing, why I only exist to please him, I am immediately close...

On the first day of Christmas, my Sir did give to me:
One orgasm for loving him.

Yay, orgasms! Orgasms are fun. I wasn't restricted from porn at the time of this orgasm so I got myself nice and horny with my wand while watching some of my favourite kink videos before I allowed myself an orgasm. The bad news is my wand is on its last legs and I have to hold the wire in a specific position for the wand to work. I really hope it lasts until after Christmas when I can get a new one!...

One of my most loved kinks is spanking and bruises that result from spanking. I would be quite happy to be permanently marked on most of my body if it were feasible. Recently I was involved in a heavy scene with one of my play partners that involved harsh spanking with hands and a belt. I have never really played with belts before, AM used one on me lightly when we met but we couldn't do much due to noise restraints in the place I was staying. So I had no idea what to expect when using it with more force...

I am feeling inspired lately to reach the goals I want and why wait until new year to start working on them? This blog is mostly a public way to keep myself motivated and I'll be updating this blog as I progress. Ideas to encourage and help me reach any are welcome and will be considered, but AM has final say on them.

Goal one: (Date set: 16/11/18)
Lose 10llbs.

This is always a tricky area for me as it's so easy for me to fall back into old and dangerous habits given...

AM wanted me to write an essay on what I thought the top five qualities any Dom should have were. I said it would be difficult to squash it into only five and so he said I didn't have to restrict it to only five. So...I didn't.

What are the five top qualities ANY Master should have? Patience, understanding, respect, love and trust.

What are the top gazillion MY Sir should have? In no particular order:

1: Intelligence: If I am not asking for examples, clarifications,...

I meant to write this a while ago so I might have forgotten some parts but I'm sure AM will add them if I have. Anything in italics were my thoughts at the time.

Sooo a while ago I asked AM if we could do interrogation play again and he said yes. A few days after he told me to get my wand, gag and clamps, clingfilm, a towel and a pillow case and go upstairs and turn my laptop on. So I got everything and went to my bedroom, turned the laptop on and he called me and told me to strip naked....