The unknown is scary.

I have always struggled with the unknown.

Surprises make me antsy. Honestly I am terrified that somebody is going to try and throw me a surprise party one day! If I find out before hand, I am NOT showing up. Being truly surprised is one thing, but the anticipation and lead up to it is the worst.

I am a planner. I want to know. I want to prepare myself. But if I don't know then I can't prepare. I can't plan. I can't .... function!...

Time for another short (hopefully) rant from the Butterfly files ...

I am so annoyed ... I am tired of being used just for somebody to get off. I don't want to be used for your fap material. My life is not your personal porno.

I don't mind talking to random people. I like to have conversations. I love to make friends. I adore talking about kink. But I am also human.

I understand that some people only come on getDare to get off, or they only want to chat...

Icy and I had a conversation this afternoon in which she told me she loved me unconditionally, and this proved she loves me more (an old and ongoing argument.)

I do not love her unconditionally, and nor does she return this, she is just simply wrong, but this we can forgive as she isn't very bright.

Unconditional love shouldn't exist unless you are a dog. The closest example a human being can experience is the love a parent holds for a child, but even this is not unconditional,...

With valentines day slowly approaching, I thought I would write about an alternative to flowers, chocolate and kisses .... biting!

Now, I am not a masochist so I don't handle a lot of pain too well, but there is something about the feel of teeth sinking into my flesh that gets me all high and floaty.

That aggressive nip of my lip as he kisses me passionately ... Pulling...

So while I was at work today, I got an idea for another fursona. But I cant draw at all, so I just looked up a free base and used that. I got the base from Sleepy Suika on deviant art.

While the base wasnt exactly what I had originally envisioned in my mind, I was able to somewhat capture what I was going for.

so meet my newest fursona! Dominic Malchiore! Id like to make more alterations in the future, but only when i can actually draw semi decently. >_<
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I have been looking for a co-dom for quiet awhile, probably about 2 years now. I have a (if I can toot my own horn) nicely written ad which you can read here.

Since I haven't had a whole lot of luck lately, I thought I would write an open letter to my future Dom ...


To my Future Dom,

We haven't met yet, but I know that I will feel lucky to know you.

You are kind, sweet and caring. You listen to me and ask questions...

Well after 20years experience as a Master and Daddy Dom plus 20 years of training female subs and novice Dommes on my lake island, I’ve learned that I’m a switch. Though I love the intimacy of pleasuring a woman ... just how she desires me to do so as her Dom, I love it even more sometimes as her slutty slave....

As a child my older girl cousin trained me to lick her to orgasms several times a week in the cellar where she’d give me a secret signal to meet her there and she’d sit on a trunk,...