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Facing fears and pushing limits: Next steps
Posted 05-08-2015 at 09:00 PM by Butterfly
There are so many ways that Sir and I have pushed my limits and overcome some of my fears and anxieties together. I have talked about a few big ones, but there are many small ways that Sir pushes me each day
Accepting compliments
Sir compliments me each and every day. Also, I always have at least one rule at any given time that makes me have to say nice things about myself.
Having me say words that make me blush
This one has become so much easier for me, but when Sir and I first started talking, I couldn't even say Clit without blushing. Two of the biggest words for me are "Cock" and "P....". I have been working on being able to type Cock and even saying it to Sir when I'm talking dirty, and we are one day going to work on the P word too.
Watching Porn
Before Asslvr and I started talking, I had never watched porn before. However, he has started to send me a few videos here and there and it really does turn me on.
Wearing sexy lingerie
I never would have thought I would be shopping for thongs and lace panties, stockings and garter belts, or see through nighties, but I have bought several at the request of Sir and wear them regularly for him.
Shaving
Before I met Sir, I always listed shaving my pubic hair as a limit. I mean, I trimmed and tidied, but I would never shave it all off, even though I had been asked and demanded to multiple times. But when Sir and I talked about, and I learned how much he loved the idea, I didn't even hesitate. It was scary for me since I am very clumsy and didn't want to cut myself in such a sensitive area, but I did it and love it.
Sir has helped me push so many limits and overcome so many fears. Looking back a year ago, I never would have thought that these things were possible, but here I am and I did it!
I would never have been able to do these things without his support, encouragement, patience and love. He is one of a kind.
Even though we have come so far, we still have many limits we want to push and fears we want to overcome together. Just a sneak preview of what is to come:
- Listening to recordings of myself talk, sing or cum
- Playing with toothpaste
- Using ice during anal play
- Sir giving me an enema
- Play with a new tunnel plug, and using it to have anal sex
- Play with an electric butt plug, or electric dildo
- Experiment with my Domme side on Asslvr in person
Accepting compliments
Sir compliments me each and every day. Also, I always have at least one rule at any given time that makes me have to say nice things about myself.
Having me say words that make me blush
This one has become so much easier for me, but when Sir and I first started talking, I couldn't even say Clit without blushing. Two of the biggest words for me are "Cock" and "P....". I have been working on being able to type Cock and even saying it to Sir when I'm talking dirty, and we are one day going to work on the P word too.
Watching Porn
Before Asslvr and I started talking, I had never watched porn before. However, he has started to send me a few videos here and there and it really does turn me on.
Wearing sexy lingerie
I never would have thought I would be shopping for thongs and lace panties, stockings and garter belts, or see through nighties, but I have bought several at the request of Sir and wear them regularly for him.
Shaving
Before I met Sir, I always listed shaving my pubic hair as a limit. I mean, I trimmed and tidied, but I would never shave it all off, even though I had been asked and demanded to multiple times. But when Sir and I talked about, and I learned how much he loved the idea, I didn't even hesitate. It was scary for me since I am very clumsy and didn't want to cut myself in such a sensitive area, but I did it and love it.
Sir has helped me push so many limits and overcome so many fears. Looking back a year ago, I never would have thought that these things were possible, but here I am and I did it!
I would never have been able to do these things without his support, encouragement, patience and love. He is one of a kind.
Even though we have come so far, we still have many limits we want to push and fears we want to overcome together. Just a sneak preview of what is to come:
- Listening to recordings of myself talk, sing or cum
- Playing with toothpaste
- Using ice during anal play
- Sir giving me an enema
- Play with a new tunnel plug, and using it to have anal sex
- Play with an electric butt plug, or electric dildo
- Experiment with my Domme side on Asslvr in person
Total Comments 3
Comments
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Oh wow, I am so glad to hear that the two of you are exploring self-esteem 'limits' and 'fears'.
Always nice to meet someone who is travelling along the path of raising their self-esteem.
Guess butterflies are alike :P (yes, they are all gorgeous)
My butterfly is also extremely shy about saying specific words (ie. fuck, cock, etc. - in fact, the first thing she told me was that she rarely swore, and often, it's only in sexual-context [which I think is extremely cute]) along with this; not a day goes by without me complimenting her (and she is starting to slowly 'accept' them).
Of course, I am more subtle about it, and she might not even notice the change (of course now she will as she is bound to read this comment), but it's extremely nice for us to see people whom we love gain confidence in their body.
Looking forward to hearing more about your amazing adventures!!Posted 05-09-2015 at 01:00 AM by M.G 
Updated 05-09-2015 at 01:06 AM by M.G -
It's always nice to hear about how a relationship develops between a Dominant and their sub. I especially love it when the ideals kind of match up with my own. I love that asslvr tells/shows you on a pretty constant basis on how much he appreciates you as I feel that all subs need to feel that otherwise they can start to question themselves, or that may just be me. Also I'm glad that asslvr is not forcing you like some so-called "Dominants" on this site and realizes that certain elements take time and patience. I just recently started reading your blogs and I love hearing about the relationship the two of you have as it is really solid and a joy to read about.Posted 05-09-2015 at 09:46 AM by Komodo Jones
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First of all, and I am aware I say something like this every time, I love how the two of you are doing D/s together!
You never watched porn before? Not even out of curiousity? That's interesting! I guess guys really are more visual than girls.
What's the P word?
I'm especially interested to hear how your domming experience with him will be in real life. Yay!Posted 05-09-2015 at 11:52 AM by drwarschauu
Updated 05-09-2015 at 01:17 PM by drwarschauu
