Well done, Scoopy. You are a precious indeed, even when failing and having to be punished.

Best regards to your master. It sounds like a punishment fit for the crime, and a happy ending. I hope you care for brushing your teeth better now.

Feels like i am reading about myself. I listen to music 24/7 myself....icant wait ro see your playlist on youtube!

This is great to read! So pleased for you!

Music is one of the most awesome things in the world. True story. I would love to see some of the music that has the biggest effects on your mood

music is powerful would love to see some of your playlists.

I used to be very pro-weed but it can have different effects with everyone. It just depends. As long as you consume in moderation you should be fine, but if it's something that seems alarming to you to be doing alone, maybe put it on the shelf for now or only smoke with friends.

Neither, a bit if smoke is ok but the danger is to use it to calm your nerves at any sign of troubles that lead you to a dependency and no one want that.

weed, instead of smoking try eating it is more friendly with your body and about cigarettes trow that shit out of your life nothing good will come from those.

Until next time.

Having a safe space is good, and using it essential. Tell me, do you have a support team you can access? It seems you could do with more professionalised support along with reaching out online. Also, we can but echo and sympathise, they could advise and reflect.

In the meantime, soundscape and familiarity, peace!

Connie

It's always necessary to have a safe place of safety and refuge. Gathering your thoughts and emotions is an important process to maintain a healthy mind. I'm happy you know enough to get away when you feel you need to... There are lots of people that don't and suffer the consequences.

As someone who's been in therapy on and off for several years, please get yourself on the waiting list - the time will pass anyway. If you have any questions about therapy, or need some support near the time about going (I was so scared the first time I went), please message me, i'm usually about That goes for getting things off your chest also.

It does get better, I promise you.

Please do not forget yourself. I know it is very easy to forget your pain in someone else's, but I promise you that if you hide your struggles it will affect your relationships. I currently have that issue with my boyfriend and we ended up having a nasty fight because of it. If someone truly cares, they will appreciate your help, but they will also understand if you need to be there for yourself first.

I know this doesn't fix the loneliness, but I did find that finding good friends on here helps take the edge off.

Opening up here is a great start, so is seeking help. I know it can feel like nothing is able to help but it will happen, it just takes time. Don't give up.

There are so many people here who are in the same boat, or have been. I know I have been in that place. It has been a long road but I am starting to feel as though I am not broken.

I know it's not the best, but if you can text, 741 741 start is a great place for a temporary fix. They are a crisis hotline, but that does not mean when you are not in crisis you can't reach out. I've used it when I have been at my level of crisis and sometimes it's nice to talk when you don't feel like a burden.

Another thing, I am so proud you feel safe enough to share here. I find the blog community here is very supportive and friendly. I have really found some great souls here and the feedback I have had is always positive. Please post what you need to get out of your head without fear.

Finally, I am not on barely ever anymore, but please send a pm if you feel like you need to vent or talk and would rather talk to one person versus the blog group here. I will respond as soon as I am on.

I know personally the struggle to function when you face depression and mental illness. I am so proud that you are reaching out in rl. It's such a huge step that most people don't realize the effort it takes. Celebrate the small and large victories you deserve it. I wish you well and please don't ever feel like you can't reach out!

Been there, fellow stranger, and was there for a long long time. Speaking from the future, don't just rush into a relationship to kill the loneliness. Be picky. Be prepared to feel lonely. A lot. But as a positive to hone your skills at being a decent person and finding someone who deserves you. Like practice at a sport or any human endeavour, loneliness can be seen as making you better when you're in a relationship.

It sucks, I know. It is awful, bone-crushing and gut-wrenching. It is empty and spans deserts mentally and physically. It turns food to slush, removes humour in the nights when watching TV. It's not a nice thing. But it hones and polishes too. If you want it to.

Dream of things, dream of better. And you can't dream unless you're sleeping. Get plenty of sleep. Eat well. Get to know colleagues or travel buddies - not for potential relationships, but as anchors and friends. Maybe you never open up to them, but lay the foundations to see if they're worth it.

I feel your pain, I know your pain, I was once you. I'm not the only one. Nor are you.

Stay strong, Ghost, stay strong.

I can understand the feeling of being lonely. I really don't have a solution for you, but I wanted to let you know that you aren't alone in feeling that way. Sometimes I can feel lonely even when I am surrounded by people.

Know that you are not screaming into the void, a stranger on the internet has seen, read and understood. You are not alone. You are stronger than the lies the depression feeds you.

I wish you well, fellow stranger, and know that your opening up has already had an effect on the people that have read it. Like everything detectable in the Universe - you matter.

Connie

Life is a bitch, but you have wait day by day a little more we all feel the same at some point and many overcome this stage at least here you aren't alone kisses and a big hug

You aren't alone we are not next to you but we are cclose in many ways, lots suffer like you and this comunity exist with the single porpouse to help guide and guive peace of mind to those who ask.

Any time you need to share, talk or lose some steam contact me, some time all we need in a bad day is some one to hear us. we have to stick together and support.

To you my best wishes, everything you are living has a porpouse and I hope you learn the best things of this, take care and hang on a little more

*claps* bravo for publicly opening up about this.

Not many people open up in private settings, let alone public(ish) settings such as this site.

I don't know exactly everything that you are going through, but I myself have had my own struggles with mental health and some of those thoughts you may be having.

Regardless of how you feel, please know that no matter how corny this is and how untrue it may seem right now: it will and does get better.

Will it happen overnight? Of course not. But it will. I'm an example of that happening. I fought like hell and things have certainly gotten better.

Are things with me absolutely perfect? Hell no. But they are 50x better than they were three years ago and I've learned to overcome those thoughts and am working on making things in my life even better.

You got this, I believe in you.

I’m currently offline on gD however my inbox is always open!! just shoot me a PM. Some great apps that can help is 7 cups of tea! So many of us have mental illness and we feel there’s no one we can turn to! There are communities! You are worth soooo much! And you are not alone with your mental illness! I hope you continue blogs!! I know writing helps me! There are so many ways you can put your feelings into writing!