I am going to interrupt my blog series on "facing fears and pushing limits" to post a blog that I have had saved in my drafts folder for almost 6 months.

After reading Sparklystar's blog about her Master being upset over a blog she posted, I left her a comment about blogs being your own personal thoughts and feelings, and not letting anybody say what you can and cannot write about. However, I felt like a hypocrite because I let this happen to me.

6 months ago,...

k.. I just made $15 for spending 10 (technically 7) minutes masturbating for some guy I met on cam4. He literally wanted to see my face, boobs, pussy and watch me pee in a cup.. I didn't really do the face part because it made me uncomfortable but everything else I gave into..

I don't know how I feel about it. Honestly, it's not something I can say I'm proud of (there's a fucking cup of pee in my room right now...) but I'm not exactly ashamed either. It was easy money and that's exactly...