Wow. Reality sucks. I got myself on a little but of a high (not getting high, completely different). Anyways, my friend warned me about this. I didn't listen. Reality is starting to set in just a little. It is a long way down from the top. I don't think I will reach the bottom. However, I am afraid I stumble significantly. I know what I have been writing since late last month hasn't made any sense at all. Maybe eventually I will be able to say what exactly happened. But for right now, I just...

So I can't even make this up. I received another PM asking for me to delete their account. This is the 5th I have received this week. AHHH!!!!

at first when i told him it wouldnt be able to live a slave lifestyle. i was nervous about rather i would upset him or not and even slightly afraid to see him again. but i've been talking to him alot today and i feel alot more at ease. i can still meet him and be at his whim without giveing up control of my life. it makes me feel alot better. especially since i'm starting to relize he really is interesetd in my safty and well-being in these matters, and if i were to flatly refuse to do something he wouldnt...

i did not know my master wanted me to update this, but i have 2 to enter.

1.last night, useing one of my old vibrators, (as a dildo becuase it dosen't vibrate any more ) i was so horney thinking about my master, and the way he whipped my pussy.i started massageing my clit with my finger. i inserted my dildo, but first i gave my pussy a good hard smack with it, it felt good, and made me extremly exited. i imagined my master tying me up (a favorit fanatsy) and shocking me. (another favorit...

So I got this lovely PM yesterday/today. I have not included the users name for privacy reasons.

Here is the first one:

Delete my account?

As you well know, this is simply not possible. It is stated a million times for Gods sake. Anyways I send this smart ass remark:...

the next time i went to meet him, he told me to bring all the toys i had, so i brought all my old vibrators and some anal beads. he told me to bring a big glass of ice cubs and some toothpaste as well. i was a little nervous about the ice cubs and toothpaste, but I did as i was told.
when i got there, he told me to undress. i did so, and he twisted my nipples, hard. he said "do you like that?" i said "Yes Sir" to which he responded "good"
he told me to lay...