Nice and what a lovely blog. But sadly, only 278 words.

I guess if you count what the blog is as part of the 300 words it makes it. But that isn't really a part of the blog is it?

Seriously though, it is fine you brat, I enjoyed it.

I'm glad touching helps you relax. And sounds you like you have two lovely girls who care about you too. (You can tell they make you happy.)

Good. I love this, might do some more in the future.

That's alright. Long as you finish it. I'm not super evil. Just mildly evil.

Can't wait until you continue this.

My first thought is that you should be yourself, be genuine. You have all the right caring and social attitudes and felings. You will respond well. Yes, sometimes it will feel awkward, and a few of those it might actually be awkward. But as long as everyone knows you are being a true and genuine person, it will be ok.
This is not an easy thing, and my heart reaches out to you. There is no 'right' way to act, other than being yourself. Everyone who knows you around here knows that you area good solid and caring person - and that is not limited to here, its the real you.

I either become overwhelmed or feel like a fake. (I'm not comfortable with either having or showing emotions.)

My guess is that most people have these same thoughts and worries: the people around you are probably just as lost and bewildered.

My suggestion: talk to a friend about this. I have found that when I talk - really talk - about things, they also become clearer in my sorry excuse for a head.

I wish you good things.

This is great. I sense you are having lots of fun

Nice. I may have to give more pm dares like these in the future.

Sounds awesome. Very creative Sam.

I love this. Wow, Sam is evil. I can't wait to see what day 2 will bring too.

Just wanted to point out Matt has changed some rules for sending pm dares so they are more inclusive, less restricted. Also added 2 or 3 new ones

Thank you for this. Now it will be easier to torture you.

Matt you are one of the sweetest and most caring people I know whether it be getDare or real life. I sent you a message on kik about some other things, but I want to tell you this. You do not have to know what love is to care about someone, to be there for someone, and to do all the things a person may want in a relationship. Also normal is overrated. Your quirks are what make you you. In fact if you asked any of us here to pick something we would want to change about you, the only thing we might say is that we want you to see yourself the way we see you.

You are helpful, caring, respectful, mindful, trustworthy, honest, brave, outgoing, responsible, you follow through, you keep promises, you persevere.

People say I am brave because I have fought the will to kill myself. It took me a while to believe them, but I finally found it in myself to believe it. But overcoming all the thoughts and pain inside of yourself and in your head is brave. I hope you can find the meaning and truth in that like I have.

You are amazing Matt and I would rather go blue in the face to make it known than let you feel like you aren't amazing. Believing in yourself will come with time and I believe in you.

My mother suffered with depression all her life, and I have family members who have been in institutions with it. It is horrible, and there are no easy answers.

You could have been describing me. Awkward at times. Not a lot of friends. I think I had one date in high school and wasn't kissed until college.

One thing that I appreciate is that SO MANY of us have gone or are kind of going thru this or something similar. I am honestly shocked to hear this from you of all people. I would have thought you were one of the happiest people here.

Just a few things. Exercise does help. Science backs that up. If you can, talk to a counselor. It could take awhile, but might really help.

Try to be positive and think positive thoughts. You are [probably the most popular guy on here. Everyone likes you A LOT! there is a good reason for that. Just be yourself in regular like too. You will find that people DO like you!

Never give up and NEVER lose hope! Know that Sam, Lucy, LPV, and many others here love you. We have never met, but you are still one of my best friends anywhere. God bless!

I feel socialising is a small part of life and does not define all that one is. You are focussing on this and letting it affect you more than necessary and forgetting all the other personality traits that you have which make you a wonderful person. So let me list a few qualities that I have observed in you to remind you that you are a great friend and individual. determined, competent, honest, reliable, intelligent, wise, rational, compassionate, helpful, loyal, fair, considerate, good looking to list a few and I can go on and on..

and if you ever feel like talking to me about it or anything else feel free to hmu, I have dealt with depression myself, though for different reasons. take care

I'm so sorry you're going through such a tough time. It is unfortunate that it wasn't picked up when you were younger so you could have got help with it. As I can only imagine how difficult it must have been for you at school. I think the UK has been quite slow in recognising and understanding these conditions.

I do agree with others, that I think it would help for you to talk to someone about it. There is more help available now. I'm here if you need to talk.