This also will be a short blog
Im going to tell a bit about my relation with music

As summary
Music can make my emotions change


I basically have music 24/7 on
And when i get a certain feeling
I set music on equal to that feeling

But sometimes i feel bad and set on happy music

But that sadly wont change
My mind...



Music is.like a drug that makes every feeling stronger

Currently i realised that im beginning to smoke more
And before i would never buy them but i still did just now

And then there is the 2nd thing

Since i live in the Netherlands
I can basically buy weed without problems
But the thing was i never really did it alone or just without my best friend

And now i basically got one, and smoked it.


Its that i now realise, i might use more sigs or weed
But im not sure...

This will be a bit of a short one
But still want to talk about it.

In the past i used to have bad moments
And i always go to this starbucks middle in a certain city

And used to.drink coffee there because it makes my mind at ease

I sit there even right now as i write this
With my coffee, and my music in my ears

Having my own space

And just.. get things straight


I have had a little breakdown...

This blog is one of a big series to open up to the world.
I want to talk about one of my biggest mental issues that i always had.

And that is loneliness

To keep this part short. I lost alot of friends and i always wanted a girlfriend that just loves me for who i am

And even if not..
I just want to hug, kiss, cuddle and more, because i need physical contact. Because i want to do it for the other person and it makes me forget the world and be...