thank you!! i haven't read it since i wrote it and had someone else edit it for me so i'm too scared to go back to see what the switchy cues were in particular

long time no see!! i missed you <3 thank you so much!!

@bluedieblub @andom4444 thank you so much!! xx

lucky for you i was able to update quickly

i totally get that i toyed with the idea myself several years ago because i'm very into exhibitionism and objectification, so i thought James would like it as well. he's equally excited.. until i get a little too creative (; but the thrill is half the fun!

thank you! (: we thought it would make him more eager to do a good job knowing his incentive was to spoil me or buy something for us to play with for our next meet up. and of course feeling like an actual whore is an experience in it's self (; did you have luck earning yourself any coins or did you do it purely for the thrill?

Add it to your 300 blog suggestions!!

I know there is a difference between punishments and funishments, and that's what I've noticed a lot browsing the forums and having to experience in past relationships.. but now just the thought of failing my Dom makes me feel truly rotten inside. It's not the actual punishment itself that bothers me no matter how much I'd dislike it, it's the residual feelings that linger for far too long. If I only had to deal with doing a task I really despised, I could handle it, but the mental/emotional aspect of knowing I let down James hurts me too much. I much prefer have the leniency that he currently gives me with time schedules so that I can give a task my full attention than have to jump through hoops to get something done in a strict time restraint. I know this wouldn't work for everyone, but I'm glad that I found someone whose idea of kink matches up with mine ;P.

As for the rules, that's good! That's the beauty of BDSM . There's no one way or right way of doing things. Even our own personal standards change with partners or over time, and I think that's awesome to be able to watch. Especially when you blog about it or have a site like this where you can look back on your posts and see how much you've changed over the years.

You definitely chose the perfect people to enter a blackmail relationship with! It's also nice that you're all beginners so you can explore boundaries and set them together rather than have preconceived notions of what might have worked in the past with different partners. I think that blackmail in general is really intriguing because of the risk, but I'm just glad I can be a bystander to it and not have to participate . Hopefully my OP didn't come off as knocking your kink, as that truly wasn't my intention!

I think I just don't do well will adding stress to my day it makes me lose all motivation knowing I have a mounting to do list that I can't give my 100% attention to. We do often wager bets and things like that that cause short term rules, but it's more spontaneous so I think that helps me swallow the 'rules' pill.

I'm sorry you had a poor photo experience with your first domme! I get it since when I do photo threads I always end up having people overstep with keeping my photos and treating them as their personal property and it makes me want to end it all, but thankfully I have a good support system if anything were to happen, which eases my worries a bit.

I don't think that blackmail is a bad thing in general, I just think it's not my thing. I don't really hesitate to send incriminating photos and James knows every personal detail there is to know about me, but I like the comfort of knowing I have nothing to fear. It's taken me a lot to work up to this level of trust so I'm enjoying reveling in it as much as I can. Even if my Dom and I were to switch, I know all of his personal details, even passwords for things, but I still want the things that we share to be cherished in a sense.. There are a few things I like to keep just for us!