Am I Bi or Something Else?
Posted 02-23-2013 at 09:28 AM by Komodo Jones
Hey guys haven't posted on this blog in a very long time. Mainly I've been concentrating moreso on my vanilla blog, which is not on this site, but only select individuals I trust know of it but I digress...
For a while now, I've been describing myself as partially bi; and yes I'll explain it again. Partially bi, by my definition means that I enjoy playing sexually with both genders, but I can only see myself dating or marrying a woman. Now that's still the cae but now I've been having thoughts for a while and I'm not sure if I can accurately describe myself as that anymore.
The thoughts I have come about when I'm watching porn usually. Now I enjoy all sorts of porn but here's what happens. whenever I watch a woman getting her boobs sucked or her pussy licked, I enjoy it but whenever I see a guy getting a blow job I almost have an insatiable want to suck on a dick and this happens everytime I watch porn. Now the problem is whenever I see oral on a girl's tits or her pussy I don't get that urge to want to actually do it. I mean I love playing with boobs as much as the next guy but it's never the same urge as wanting to give a guy a blow job.
So my question if I can only see myself marrying a woman but I see myself having more enjoyment playing with a man, does that still make me partially bi or something else? And before you suggest marrying a shemale that's not happening.. It's not that it's weird I mean if a shemale offered to play with me I'd jump at the opportunity, best of both worlds there, BUT in essence I would be marrying a man, just a man with boobs and like I said I could never marry a man.
I don't know if it's because I've had more experience playing with males, even though I've only played with one (past puberty) male, and actually he was the one playing with me. The ones that were prepubescent were also just as I was entering puberty. But I've also played with one past puberty female. So I don't know. What are your thoughts on this?
For a while now, I've been describing myself as partially bi; and yes I'll explain it again. Partially bi, by my definition means that I enjoy playing sexually with both genders, but I can only see myself dating or marrying a woman. Now that's still the cae but now I've been having thoughts for a while and I'm not sure if I can accurately describe myself as that anymore.
The thoughts I have come about when I'm watching porn usually. Now I enjoy all sorts of porn but here's what happens. whenever I watch a woman getting her boobs sucked or her pussy licked, I enjoy it but whenever I see a guy getting a blow job I almost have an insatiable want to suck on a dick and this happens everytime I watch porn. Now the problem is whenever I see oral on a girl's tits or her pussy I don't get that urge to want to actually do it. I mean I love playing with boobs as much as the next guy but it's never the same urge as wanting to give a guy a blow job.
So my question if I can only see myself marrying a woman but I see myself having more enjoyment playing with a man, does that still make me partially bi or something else? And before you suggest marrying a shemale that's not happening.. It's not that it's weird I mean if a shemale offered to play with me I'd jump at the opportunity, best of both worlds there, BUT in essence I would be marrying a man, just a man with boobs and like I said I could never marry a man.
I don't know if it's because I've had more experience playing with males, even though I've only played with one (past puberty) male, and actually he was the one playing with me. The ones that were prepubescent were also just as I was entering puberty. But I've also played with one past puberty female. So I don't know. What are your thoughts on this?
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First of all;...I'm definately not the expert in this.
Could the seeing yourself being married to a woman/girl only be that way because it's a sort of natural picture of marriage, more like "the way it's supposed to be" and tradition?
And is the feeling and exitement of playing with males more interesting because you really enjoy it that -much more than with woman-, or because it's more exiting as such since it somehow still is a taboo in some places?
Bi-sexuality is often misunderstood by people around you. And it can at times be confusing for yourself too I guess - especially if you aren't 100% sure.
In my view it would be wise to be open about it to the people you date or go out with. Tell them you are unsure, and try and figure out what you really want. During puberty a lot of things are also just very exiting. Past puperty you'll figure out what you really want - and look for long term.
Follow your feelings, don't let yourself be judged or feel weird about it - there's no reason to :-) Be whoever you want to be!Posted 02-23-2013 at 12:24 PM by deschut 
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Hi. I don't even know how I came across this, but I have something similar (not identical.)
I experience emotional connections and sexual connections with people differently, and they are not always connected.
I call the emotional connection (who I could marry), "affectional orientation", and the sexual connection (who I can have sex with) "sexual orientation."
I thought I was mostly lesbian (or partly bi) for years because I couldn't really get the emotional connection with guys, and was rarely sexually attracted to one.
Lately though I have had very satisfying sexual relationships with a few guys, and also very recently realized I can have the emotional connection with one too.
Anyway, I mainly wanted to say that the emotional connections we have with our significant others, and the sexual connections we have with people are not the same thing, and they don't always line up right.Posted 04-14-2013 at 11:09 PM by Happy Me
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I honestly have the same thing but opposite lol. I enjoy straight porn, but watching girl on girl really excites me. I've kissed a few girls and done more with one, but even if I wasn't married, I couldn't see myself entering a serious relationship with a woman.
Des raises a good point in that you might just not see yourself marrying a man because of societal norms. You certainly need to be honest with any woman you date that you are sexually attracted to men.
Once you experiment more, it will become clearer where you should be.Posted 04-18-2013 at 06:27 PM by jlstockton25
