Have you ever had a panic attack? I am sure it is different for everybody but this is what usually happens to me ...

My chest will start to feel tight and it gets really hard to breathe. My chest starts to ache the longer it lasts. I feel like I need to cry to relieve the pressure, but it just doesn't help. Sometimes I start hyperventilating just to try and get some air.

But this week has been different. It started on Saturday. One of my triggers presented itself, but I...

This is a basic outline on how i shower pretty often its a good reminder of my place.

- slut is naked and on all fours or knees at all times in the bathroom.
- edge 2 times before shower
- clothespins on nipples and 1 or more on clit and as many as possible on each lip
- get in the endure ( sub/slave position) for 5 minutes
- going into the shower turn it on cold for at least 2 minutes. Sluts can lose some calories from the shivering and hair will be shiner....

I decided to have a go at creating a dare/punishment that turned out to be a bound sensory deprivation thing. It was really fun.

I used a belt with a hole punched close to the buckle end to tie my ankles together with. I used another smaller belt that I tightened around my upper legs. This effectively limited all movement of my legs. I used a dog collar to bind my hands. I left it a bit loose so I could undo it if someone came home, which fortunately, no-one did. I put two of the little...

I thought it was high time I started doing this and start shareing all the naughty things I occasianly do ! Yesterday I drove around with clothes pins on my nipples because I had taken to long to get out of bed and I was stuck doing my errends during traffic time. When I was finally home And parked my car I was in so much pain I ripped off the clothes pins! I think the neighbor saw me ! Going to be doing this more so I don't dilly dally as much

These three posts are some that I worte and forgot about. I only found them now. I have no idea how long ago each of these things happened, but enjoy nonetheless.

I had just finished doing a dare when I heard rain outside my window. I was naked as I normally am when there's no-one home. I decided this would be a good time to push my public limit, while also getting a bit wet. I ran out the door, down the stairs and hid behind a shrub. The way to the front door is concealed a bit by two...

Follow the rules!

My roommates wanted to watch porn... together. Like a social activity.

We all settled down and I got a couch all to myself (woohoo!)

They put Pirates on. The A/C was on high and I got cold, so I snuggled under the blanket. The porn was boring1 and I was tired, so I stretched out on the couch, rolled over, and pulled the blanket up to my chin. Naptime, bitches.

Apparently, I had committed a major faux pas of social porn...

Stating from how a person was raised as a child. From that love in which they were missing while growing up. From how they were abuse in parts of their life. From not knowing what the word "true love," truly mean. From seeing abuse take place in the family around them. From trying to get that love when it is not love at all. From how they are not mentally capable of understanding themselves fully. From the degrees in which one must show power over...