I recently became involved in the local scene and I've been going to munches, buying toys, and playing with strangers. One thing I seemed to have forgotten, and I think people just tend to let this slip their minds, is that submission is fucking hard. Yes, dominating/topping/owning someone is difficult too, but I'm going to talk about the strength needed to relinquish control.

People submit for a host of reasons. For me, one of the main forces that draws me towards the S side of a D/s...

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List of toys I own

Pink Ballet Boots (8" Heels)
Ankle Boot Straps
Open Mouth gag with Head Harness
Pink and black Posture Collar
Holy Trainer Chastity Device
Black Ball gag (Breathable)
Vibrating Tail Buttplug ( Broken does not vibrate :c )
Turkey Bastor ( for enema play )
Wireless Vibrating Buttplug
Belt spreader / plug harness
4 5" Posture collar
2" ballgag w/ Head Harness
Sensory Deprivation...

Whether in the vanilla world or a D/s relationship, whether RL or online, certain relationships are toxic.

It is always difficult to end a relationship. But in my experience, people with submissive tendancies find it even harder to do so, no matter the circumstances. The find themselves accepting the blame for things that are not their fault. They find themselves making excuses for the other. Worst of all is when they find themselves believing they actually in some way deserve the...

Warning: I am writting this as I lay in bed and really have no idea where it is going to lead but I need an outlet for these emotions so here it is ....

I am sad.

I really don't know what a single cause to my sadness is but I feel it. This overwhelming sadness. I have cried several times over the last few days.

I am lonely.

I don't know how it is possible that I am lonely as I lay next to the man I love but I am. I feel so alone. Don't get...

Noneday 1/7th Novembuary:

[27:72pm] Neverwas: Likin 4 Master. Sum1 b my master.
[27:73]Dontexist: Male or female?
[27:74pm] Neverwas: female master.
[27:73]Dontexist: I willbe ur master, give me kik, skype, 17 naked photos including face

Somedayday 1/8th Novembuary:

[24:89pm] Neverwas: Likin 4 Master. Sum1 b my master.

Hey people this is my first blog post on here. I guess I'll start out by saying that I prefer dares about putting ice in my pussy, masturbating, fingering myself under the table and possibly under the table at a restaurant or at a movie theater.