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General info: I am generally denied orgasms. I'm horny and frustrated all the time.

10: As soon as possible after getting the PM or KIK, take my balls out and punch them 10 times.

HA, HA, BITCH: Take out my dick asap and stroke till hard/edge. Then put it back all horny and frustrated.

EDGE: Edge, or do an online edging game, for 15 minutes continuously. Make it as agonizingly frustrating as...

For the past two months, I have been going swimming once a week, on Thursdays. (except last week when I was sick, and 3 weeks ago when I had stuff on). A couple of weeks ago I had the idea of wearing a buttplug while I was swimming. Today I finally got around to trying it out.

I put the plug and some lube in my swimming bag and set off. Instead of changing in the open part of the changing room I entered a cubicle. Putting it in wasn't too eventful. Once it was in I had no issues.
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So Aimee and I each have ways we can 'earn' orgasms to put into our shared bank for the month of May. These orgasms can be used by either of us when AM isn't around to ask provided we're not in denial/currently refused it. We're trying our best to get it to 1,000 before the ways expire.

Last night AM offered me an optional way for me to get 90 orgasms into the bank in one small task. The task was to pee outside while naked and with my clamps and gag in/on....but not in my back yard. Just...

I. AM. STRUGGLING.

I am overwhelmed.

Who knew that adulting would be this hard. Should it be this hard?

I am always the person that others come to lean on. I am the person who my family relies on. To keep them sane. To fix their problems. To comfort them.

But what if I can't?

What happens when the person who is holding everybody together, can't do it any longer?

It is too hard. I don't know what to say. I don't...

1: Ask "why?" to every order they give you. "But why do you want me to do that?" "But why will it make you happy?" "But why can't I do something else instead?"

2: Whenever asked a question you don't really want to answer, tell them "maybe." "Maybe it turned me on." "Maybe it made me wet." "Maybe I like it when you do those things to me."

3: Direct all the obvious trolls to their inbox. Then...

This blog is just here to help me keep track of my tasks. All times are in minutes.

(65/65) Edge with left hand while wearing underwear
(15/15) Edge with left hand in alternating stress positions
(15/15) Edge with left hand with clothespegs on tongue
(12/12) Edge with left hand while watching or hearing porn
(15/15) Edge with left hand while using rope/belt creatively

(15/15) Do WriteForMe while commando
(40/40) Do WriteForMe in alternating...

It's past two a.m. in the morning and I can't get to sleep, why not write in my blog as it seems like something I feel I should do even though it may not get as much traffic as some other people. But at the same time people say you should do something while you're having trouble falling asleep instead of just laying down staring at the darkness as you wait for sleep to overtake you. So yeah let's keep your brain occupied with other things to help get to you sleep. This seems counter-constructive...