Well ... this year is not starting out super great, but I thought I would give you all an update anyways ...

Christmas

Mr. Devious had an amazing Christmas holidays together. We spent 6 days without even leaving the house. We just go to relax and spend time together watching movies and literally not even leaving bed other than to eat or use the bathroom most days.

Christmas eve we put on our matching Christmas pjs and had a relaxing night getting ready...

My Teamup Calender

Feel free to keep me busy, although my work schedule is really dynamic and changing so I will constantly update my schedual every week and during the week, if this will make a problem with a task / rule , I will just change the time during the day to complete that task / rule ..

PLEASE KEEP ME BUSY

My Calender Link

"All the world's a stage ..."

I fantasize about being mistreated, abused, raped, enslaved, and other kinky stuff. But, it IS a fantasy! I don't really like to be. When I do, it's all consensual and involves an end, anytime by my word. It also implies rules.

I also don't want to ruin my social life or career, my fiances, commit crimes, harm myself beyond reason and much more. Most of us don't want that, at least to my expression.

But when I get horny,...

I am not an optimist. I try REALLY hard to be a positive, happy person, but the truth is, it is a daily struggle for me. I have to force myself to find the positive in life.

I wouldn't even consider myself a pessimist per say. Yeah my brain automatically thinks of everything that COULD go wrong. And sometimes I get sucked into that black vortex of negativity. But I guess I would consider myself a realist.

The reality is, not everything is just "going to be ok"....

I think I just missed a great view on the way home today.


As I went past, I saw 3 girls that looked like they were pulling their bras/shirts back down after flashing together. There was also a girl coming back across the road, from the other side, which adds to this theory. I am assuming she took a picture!



Unfortunately, I was not a couple of seconds quicker to go along that bit of road!

I know my life isn't complete shit. I have things pretty good overall, but I have also been dealt a lot of shit cards.

I was abused as a child, I was sexually assaulted as a young adult, I was in a controlling (not in a good way) and isolating relationship for 6 years .... I have lost many loved ones in tragic ways ...

Just last year I had a miscarriage, was attacked at work, had to unplug from my aunt from life support, was in a car accident which left me in pain daily...

Likes- Feet, diapers, spanking, pain, denial, forced orgasms, ruined orgasms, chastity, discomfort, edging, anal, toothpaste play.

willing to try anything not in limits

dislikes- pussy to ass, semi-public, pee drinking, cum eating, bruises

Limits- family, social suicide, beastiality, ass to mouth, ass to pussy, needles, pemanent, blood