This is one question that I absolutely hate. How am I supposed to answer this? Other than posting my BDSM test results, how do I quantify my submissiveness.

Are they looking for a percentage? A number between 1 and 10? Is there some scale of subbyness that I was never introduced too? Should I look in Cosmo for a 8 question quiz that will tell me the answer?

What's the right answer?

Do I share with you examples about how much I love to please? or maybe it...

I've been posting this to the forms so much I figure I should just make a blog entry for it


I don't have a camera on the PC, nor any porn. But losing all control and power of my computer is something I can't stop thinking about...
especially the idea of my inputs being locked and even enabling PrivacyMode so I can't see anything.

Connect to me and let me know what you want to do with my PC then I can give you control.

You can:
- Install...

I have had self esteem issues my entire life. Many years have been spent afraid of what others will think if they see me, all of me. It's stupid really ... because a tshirt or sweater doesn't change who I am under the clothes.

I have been on this journey to love myself. Because of health reasons, I have not had any success in changing my weight, but I have been working hard to be healthy, and that is the part that matters most to me.

Part of my happiness needs to come...

Today has not been a good day for me. The weather outside here is finally warming up some. Yet, from the low temperatures, it has been bad on my body. I had to break down and go to the minor emergency clinic and see if they could help me somehow. They ended up given me a pain shot from how my back was. I didn't want pain pills.

I am still recovering from a major car wreck that happened back in November, right after Thanksgiving. I have been pushing myself and it did finally caught up...

Today is Valentine's Day. I don't buy into the hallmark version of the holiday. I don't need expensive jewelry or gifts, I don't even need flowers or candy. (Chocolate and stuffies on the other hand are a daily necessity, not just today). But I think that Valentine's Day can be special. It is a reminder to vocalize your love for those that are important to you.

I am so lucky and blessed. I have...

If you missed part 1, here is the link.

I had my 4th session the day before yesterday.

I managed to learn some tricks to help over issues when the laser sometimes doesn't want to fire despite trying a lot and everything seeming fine. Also, I am way more confident about using it at all. I also think I am faster and more efficient, having figured out when to turn it how, how to make sure to cover all the area and not overlap, and also get better with complicated area like...

Clamp - I will clamp my nipples for X minutes (max 15 minutes)
Edge - I will edge X times before I can cum (max 10 cumulative)
Cum - I will get permission from X people to cum (max 5 people)
Snap - I will snap my nipples X amount of times (max 10 times)
Add - I will add a pm dare of your choice
Jump - I will jump X times naked with clamps on (max 10 times)
Torture- I will place my vibrator on my clit for X minutes you choose the speed (max 15 minutes)
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