I am not an optimist. I try REALLY hard to be a positive, happy person, but the truth is, it is a daily struggle for me. I have to force myself to find the positive in life.

I wouldn't even consider myself a pessimist per say. Yeah my brain automatically thinks of everything that COULD go wrong. And sometimes I get sucked into that black vortex of negativity. But I guess I would consider myself a realist.

The reality is, not everything is just "going to be ok"....

I think I just missed a great view on the way home today.


As I went past, I saw 3 girls that looked like they were pulling their bras/shirts back down after flashing together. There was also a girl coming back across the road, from the other side, which adds to this theory. I am assuming she took a picture!



Unfortunately, I was not a couple of seconds quicker to go along that bit of road!

I know my life isn't complete shit. I have things pretty good overall, but I have also been dealt a lot of shit cards.

I was abused as a child, I was sexually assaulted as a young adult, I was in a controlling (not in a good way) and isolating relationship for 6 years .... I have lost many loved ones in tragic ways ...

Just last year I had a miscarriage, was attacked at work, had to unplug from my aunt from life support, was in a car accident which left me in pain daily...

Likes- Feet, diapers, spanking, pain, denial, forced orgasms, ruined orgasms, chastity, discomfort, edging, anal, toothpaste play.

willing to try anything not in limits

dislikes- pussy to ass, semi-public, pee drinking, cum eating, bruises

Limits- family, social suicide, beastiality, ass to mouth, ass to pussy, needles, pemanent, blood

- 6, 8, 12 inch dildo
- 3, 5, 7 inch buttplugs
- chastity belt
- anal beads
- bullet vibe, and magic wand
- e-stim kit

As well as many household items

SUNDAY 20TH

When in London the previous week See Week 15 a week of Jane Bond https://www.getdare.com/bbs/blog.php?b=89006
I played various spy games with Master -
Unfortunately afterwards it came to light I vandalised with chalk marks a public monument and a phone box see attached pictures.
Excerpts from Emails
Email from TTJ Tiny Teats Jane@ to Master -
> I plead guilty of defacing and vandalism of a public phone box in London I also wish you...

Loves: Abdl, Diapers, Wetting diaper, Edging, Orgasm denial, Cbt

Likes: Piss play, Messing diapers, Porn control, Hypnosis, Light bondage, Medium Pain, Spanking, Chastity, Rules, Pet play, Oral, Scat

Punishments: Staying in messy diaper, Long/heavy bondage, Hard Pain, Laxatives, Ruins

Limits: Pics, Food, Public, Life destroying, Sissy, Crossdressing.