I am back from my break and ready to continue talking about facing my fears and pushing my limits. Let's get started, shall we?

I have never thought myself to be attractive or sexy. I am overweight and have been told all my life that I am fat, ugly, etc. I have really bad self esteem and self confidence, and so when it comes to getting naked in front of somebody, I do everything I can to stall or prevent it from happening.

Even on our first two trips together, I was too...

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I am crazy excited about something!

So, right now, justJane, Rainbow Bright, and me all live in a house. Inside the house are 4 apartments, so we all have our own apartment, but we share the building? It is a wonderful building, brick, built in 1893, huge windows, in a great urban neighborhood.

Even more wonderful is that my two favorite people on the earth are my neighbors, so I get to see them all the time!

We love it here. We had a garden in the summer,...

Most of my recent blogs have been about overcoming personal barriers or looking at the progress that I've made since becoming Master's.

What I always glossed over was how and why I felt it possible to achieve these things with him. So without further ado:

*You encourage me every day.

Sometimes, I don't think I can do something. Not because I am physically incapable but because I don't always believe in myself. You're slowly changing that and making me realize...

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For some reason we all, as a society, as individuals, love blame. When something goes wrong, someone is to blame, otherwise we can't handle it. We shout and scream at each other, trying to shift the blame from ourselves. Otherwise we feel guilty and emotional and take the blame onto ourselves. Why?

There are times, certainly, when someone is at fault. There are crimes, deliberate cruelties, but I am not talking about hose times. Nor am I talking about natural disaters "acts of...

I have mentioned a time or two that my IceMaiden has done the occasional very slightly naughty thing for me. I might have made note now and then of how beautifully obedient and submissive she is. It is possible I have even mentioned how beautiful she is, both physically and as a person.

I know I have said often that I love her.

Is that because she does naughty things? No (though those help.)

Is it because she is obedient and submissive? Oh no, though...