I'm an anomaly
Posted 07-25-2018 at 08:28 AM by Foxy Rose
I have an immense love for people. I don't understand it myself sometimes. I'm drawn to someone and love them and want them in my life, forever.
I don't know what it is. We just click and gel in that moment. Hard to explain. Maybe due to past relationships or friendships? Hard to say or explain. But I do, so badly.
In the same sense that I have an immense love for people, I find it hard to understand what people see in me. Why do people want me around? What value do I bring to your life?
Such is the vicious cycle of my life / love / friendships. I need constant attention. Constant reminders of why, how and the sorts. I'm insecure, due to, lets just say, past romantic relationships and past platonic friendships.
I don't know how to explain the feelings I have been feeling these days. It's more down than up. Maybe I do need a holiday. Maybe I do need a better job. Maybe I do need that spanking I've been telling some people. Maybe I do need better whatever.
I'm exhausted. But yet, people still want me around. Why the fuck? What do I bring to your life that you need me there? But also, please stay and tell me all the reasons.
I am a fucking complicated woman, even to myself!
I don't know what it is. We just click and gel in that moment. Hard to explain. Maybe due to past relationships or friendships? Hard to say or explain. But I do, so badly.
In the same sense that I have an immense love for people, I find it hard to understand what people see in me. Why do people want me around? What value do I bring to your life?
Such is the vicious cycle of my life / love / friendships. I need constant attention. Constant reminders of why, how and the sorts. I'm insecure, due to, lets just say, past romantic relationships and past platonic friendships.
I don't know how to explain the feelings I have been feeling these days. It's more down than up. Maybe I do need a holiday. Maybe I do need a better job. Maybe I do need that spanking I've been telling some people. Maybe I do need better whatever.
I'm exhausted. But yet, people still want me around. Why the fuck? What do I bring to your life that you need me there? But also, please stay and tell me all the reasons.
I am a fucking complicated woman, even to myself!
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Posted 07-25-2018 at 09:41 AM by Butterfly