Orgasm for my Valentine?

[Pet Ra]

Hi

Since I'm not sure if I'm exited for my next orgasm I start this poll.

Of course I like orgasm and my last one was more that 4 weeks ago, but also I start to like the idea of bening denied because I think it makes me a better pet for Master and Mistress.

Of course it's embarrassing that I'm literally dripping wet all the time by now and that I have to put pads in my underwear when I go out. But also I feel like a child on christmas eve, the waiting for the present is as much fun as finally getting it.

I think I'm mostly afraid that I will be disappointed by my orgasm.

So the questin is:
Shall I cum on Valentines Day or be kept in denial?

[bthomas]

Hmmm, that's a good question. Have you ever been denied longer than 4 weeks before?

[Pet Ra]

No, mostly after 7-10 days I start getting very frustated.
Bus since I was sick during that time I think I went over the "being frustrated part" to the "start to like it part".

[bthomas]

Ah, a very critical threshold. I'm sure you would like even longer sessions once you build up to it. Why wait a month to get this horny and frustrated again when you could just keep going now?

[Pet Ra]

Master told me to write down reason why I should and why I should not be allowed to cum.

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1) I like the feeling how the pleasure rushes through my body.
2) It's been a while.
(Master told me that I'm just selfish)

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1) I’m just a pet and my pleasure doesn’t matter.
2) I’m supposed to give pleasure, not get any.
3) I’ll work harder to make Master and Mistress happy when I denied. Their pleasure becomes mine.
4) I shouldn’t be allowed to cum because my purpose is to become what Master want me to be.
5) Women get to cum. But I’m not a woman - I'm a virgin.
6) As long as I'm a virgin my cunt is useless, so there is no need to give it pleasure.
7) Denial shows me what I really am. I can’t pretend to be a normal person with all this throbbing and leaking between my legs.
8) It becomes harder for me to deny that I’m just a cunt. I smell like one, I’m always aware of it.
9) It teaches me that I’m not a person with free will - my body belongs to Master.
10) It makes Master's and Mistress's orgasms much more precious.
11) I should only get to cum if it's humiliating for me, as proof of my debasement.
12) It amuses Master and Mistress to see me so desperate and wet like a dog in heat.
13) If someone can't handle 2-3 drinks that person shouldn't drink at all - same with me and my orgasms.
14) I have two other holes that can pleasure Master.
15) Orgasms tend to signal the end of a fucking, but my role as a pet never really ends. Allowing me to cum would strip me of my purpose.
16) It's better to keep going than to be frustrated again after 10 days (as bthomas said)

Is it a bad sign that I could think of more reasons why I shouldn't be allowed?

[naughtylilfemme]

Originally Posted by Pet Ra

Master told me to write down reason why I should and why I should not be allowed to cum.

+
1) I like the feeling how the pleasure rushes through my body.
2) It's been a while.
(Master told me that I'm just selfish)

-
1) I’m just a pet and my pleasure doesn’t matter.
2) I’m supposed to give pleasure, not get any.
3) I’ll work harder to make Master and Mistress happy when I denied. Their pleasure becomes mine.
4) I shouldn’t be allowed to cum because my purpose is to become what Master want me to be.
5) Women get to cum. But I’m not a woman - I'm a virgin.
6) As long as I'm a virgin my cunt is useless, so there is no need to give it pleasure.
7) Denial shows me what I really am. I can’t pretend to be a normal person with all this throbbing and leaking between my legs.
8) It becomes harder for me to deny that I’m just a cunt. I smell like one, I’m always aware of it.
9) It teaches me that I’m not a person with free will - my body belongs to Master.
10) It makes Master's and Mistress's orgasms much more precious.
11) I should only get to cum if it's humiliating for me, as proof of my debasement.
12) It amuses Master and Mistress to see me so desperate and wet like a dog in heat.
13) If someone can't handle 2-3 drinks that person shouldn't drink at all - same with me and my orgasms.
14) I have two other holes that can pleasure Master.
15) Orgasms tend to signal the end of a fucking, but my role as a pet never really ends. Allowing me to cum would strip me of my purpose.
16) It's better to keep going than to be frustrated again after 10 days (as bthomas said)

Is it a bad sign that I could thing of more reasons why I shouldn't be allowed?

i think you've answered your own question here, but just in case: you really shouldn't be allowed to cum.

(don't worry, i'm totally in the same boat!)

[Pet Ra]

Just to let you know:
Master told me that if the "No" will get more votes than all "Yes" combined I'll be put in a chastity belt

[ltakltak]

Interesting! a chastity belt looks like a safe solution indeed, although it looks like you have quite some self control already. Do you anticipate to wear it outside your home if you get one?

[Pet Ra]

Well, I'm under supervision by Master or Mistress most of the time, even when I have to use the bathroom or take a shower. But in my sleep I started to rub myself against Masters leg. So Master told me that I can't be trusted to be left alone with my body anymore. Also Mistress has to get up early just to make sure that I don't touch myself in a sexuall way during my shower.

That's why we agreed that a belt would be the best solution for everyone

I think I'll start small and get used to it at home. Master is pretty sure that I won't start masturbating in the open street.

[ltakltak]

Well, starting small is the smart choice I guess, and I also trust you wouldn't start touching yourself in the street... But in a public toilet during the day when you are in denial for some time? I am not so sure if you can do without ;-)

[Pet Ra]

Hi everyone

Well, the poll is closed and the result is pretty clear - most girls get flowers and probably a good fuck for Valentines day, I got a chastity belt (I hope it will arrive for the weekend) and no touch. Master already ordered one on Monday, because he could think how the poll would end and according to my list "I really don't want an orgasm"

I want to thank everybody who voted, especially bthomas and naughtylilfemme who advised and motivated me.

In the beginning I won't be belted outside the flat, so Mistress will remove it when she picks me up in the morning. But this also means that she has to watch me while I'm on the toilet, even at school . This way we handled it the last week already. Thank god there are so many restrooms that we can choose the least frequented.

At home I'll be put in my chastity belt again, even when I'm under supervision of Master and Mistress, so I can get used to it. But I'll be unbelted for some time in the evening so I can poop and maintain proper hygiene.
Also I'll get a key for the belt too - in an sealed envelope, same way we handled it with the lock at my septate hymen.
So I can't open the belt without Master and Mistress notice (I have to show them the envelope every day), but if there is an emergency I can remove it.

[Pet Ra]

Originally Posted by ltakltak

...But in a public toilet during the day when you are in denial for some time? I am not so sure if you can do without ;-)

Hi ltakltak

You were right, you were absolutely right.
Mistress was 10 Minutes late in the morning, so I started my morning routine, and on toilet everything was fine yet, but when I went into the shower and start washing myself it just felt too good - I knew I shouldn't do it, but I couldn't stop either

Ididn't came since Mistress just came just in time to prevent that I ruined all the efford that had been put in me...

Of course I have to tell Master about this incident and I know my punishment will be harsh - as mucht as he is a gentleman in the streets, as strickt is he when I break the rules.

I'm a failure

[Pet Ra]

My denial diary can be found here.
http://www.getdare.com/bbs/showthread.php?t=334624

Thank you