[M/F] In dire need of help.

[embarassme]

This damsel is waaaay in distress. I try and try and still I am not getting any satisfaction. Every day for the last months I've been increasing the level of obscenity I am inducing to me and my mind and still I am craving.
I am craving for more. I need help.

Over time I think I developed a rather pathological problem when socializing: Outside I've been the same person I've always been, but inside I changed.
Outside I am still a nice guy, but inside I stopped craving for woman and started craving for more.
I mean, I always had a problem talking to girls the way I wanted, since I've only ever been "that nice guy". I never was part of any intense jealousy drama, I never broke any hearts. Never had to fight for a girl.

For guys I am no threat, for girls I am nothing. By now it only seems logical what happened next:

I tried to turn the humiliation of social inaptitude into something good.
Humiliation and pain are such intense feelings, why not use them for my own purposes?

Like everything in my life, I started slow, careful not to cross any moral boundaries:
Porn.
More specific porn.
BDSM-porn.
Only Femdom porn.
Gay BDSM-porn.
Trans-porn.
...
Then I went to the next stage and started doing things to myself:
Small dares, only I knew about: CBT, hidden-public, passiv anal...
GetDare-Dares others gave me.
Once I found out that there are millions of others out there who -what I thought- were just like me, I figured that there was nothing wrong with me.
One thing led to another, dares got more extreme and here I am.

When I was 12, I saw a naked woman and instantly got aroused and that was it.
Nowadays I have to crossdress, torture my cock and ass, lay in a pool of my own piss, give others control over my body, my mind and finally my soul, in the desperate attempt to fill this hole (somewhat of a pun intended) called satistfaction.
The interesting thing is, that it does not behave like any other hole... When I try to fill it, it just gets bigger, and when I am now facing it, there is this huge crater of desire I cannot really fill anymore.

As you can see here http://www.getdare.com/bbs/showthread.php?t=181489 , I am at a point, where almost all my limits are gone and my sexuality is controlling my live to a point where I am even willing to spend horrendous amounts of money to get the next kick and fill my hole for a couple of hours...

After this rather tragic description I need your help:

TL;DR: I dare you to dare me in one of two categories:

1. The get-clean category: Every dare has to help me reduce my desire and strengthen my social skills and self-confidence and maybe even my physical abilities (exercise, etc.; I am not unhealty, but not perfectly in sync with my physical form). Help me become the person my mind wants to be.

2. The let go category: Make me forget everything. Make me a mindless slave to my own desire. Make me forget everything that is holding me back and embrace my needs 24/7. Help me become the person my body wants me to be.


I hope that wasn't too much to read...

Take care and thank you already!

[Heroner]

You need to go clean and stop overstimulating your mind.

So here you go. For the next 48 hours, no porn and no masturbation. Every time you feel you need to watch porn or masturbate, make a cup of tea and go for a walk around the block.

Simple as that.

[goodboy89]

Go clean! You are allowed to cum only once a week. And your "session" must not be longer than 3 hours