I'm Hurt

Midnight · 01-18-2011, 04:36 PM

I feel completely unappreciated at home to a point to where I might revert back to my form of self medicated which my two best friends will probably kill me if they even know I'm thinking of going back to it, even in its most insignificant form.

My brother gets away with everything: food in his room from like the past two weeks and dishes that will probably have to be thrown away if they ever come out. But I leave one cup in my room over night, I get yelled at. I understand that I'm twenty two and all but my brother is about to turn eighteen!

I put away laundry, do the kitchen, even run to the store and I feel like it keeps going thrown back in my face and I'm really starting to get scared that I fall backwards (mentally and emotionally) and I don't know how to stop that from happening. I can't talk to my parents about it because they go with the whole "you're an adult" card but to get snapped at when I do something out of niceness, it hurts (really hurts).

How do I stop these feelings from happening? I'm not one to admit weakness or even fear much but I'm genuinely worried about my mental health now.

Star Shadows · 01-18-2011, 04:45 PM

I know the felling, I experience similar at home you just have to keep telling yourself you are worth more than what they make you feel, know that you are awesome and try to ignore it as much as possible. people are always going to come and try and knock you back, sometimes it is family and sometimes it is others around you. But maybe confide in a friend, let them help you. I found that helped me a lot.

Logan429 · 01-18-2011, 04:53 PM

ALright, I see your position here. My sister moved back into our house twice. The first time with her first kid, and the second time (a few months ago) with her and her TWO kids. She 7 1/2 years older then me so yaa... I see her as a loser but watev... atleast she's finally starting to get a steady job and isn't living with her parents anymore.

You could try helping around the house. I know my parents get stressed when they have to come home to a messy house, and that's usually when fights happen. So cleaning the house up for your parents may take the stress off your parents of you living there a little and make them less... tempermental. My sister was a slob, even when she was living here, which didn't help her out at all.

ultimately you're going to have to eventually move out because it doesn't sound like they are too happy about having an adult living in there house.

As for the emotions, meditate. I know, it may sound a little alien to you at first, but really it's just a time to clear your mind. It'll get any negative feeling off your chest. So what do do:
Find a nice quiet place and something soft to sit on. Use earplugs if other people are there making noise. Then sit cross legged with your hands on your knees (palms facing up). Make sure you posture is nice and straight and your head is perpendicular. Meditation should be done (time wise) of how old you are. So if you are 22 I would say meditate for about 20-25 minutes.

Once your in the position, close your eyes. Focus on NOTHING (this is what will relieve you of your stress). Any thought that pokes it's head in you must throw out, make dissapear, or ignore. Have a clock nearby aswell so you know how long you've been meditating (you'll tend to lose track of time). In, a nutshell, don't think for 25 minutes. Hope that'll help you. I meditate daily and my stress levels a low.

Hope you figure your stuff out. And atleast try meditating, it'll grow on you, and help you.

Dice7 · 01-18-2011, 05:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Midnight

I feel completely unappreciated at home to a point to where I might revert back to my form of self medicated which my two best friends will probably kill me if they even know I'm thinking of going back to it, even in its most insignificant form.

My brother gets away with everything: food in his room from like the past two weeks and dishes that will probably have to be thrown away if they ever come out. But I leave one cup in my room over night, I get yelled at. I understand that I'm twenty two and all but my brother is about to turn eighteen!

I put away laundry, do the kitchen, even run to the store and I feel like it keeps going thrown back in my face and I'm really starting to get scared that I fall backwards (mentally and emotionally) and I don't know how to stop that from happening. I can't talk to my parents about it because they go with the whole "you're an adult" card but to get snapped at when I do something out of niceness, it hurts (really hurts).

How do I stop these feelings from happening? I'm not one to admit weakness or even fear much but I'm genuinely worried about my mental health now.

Err you are 22, pretty sure your parents are telling you to grow up and either get out in the world or just be responsible for the stuff in their house.

If you don't plan on moving out then pay some rent or help with the bills if you aren't already, if you are just tell them to get fucked because you are paying to live there.

Either way drugging yourself is ridiculously over the top for this kind of thing

Sorry to be harsh but really..

01-18-2011, 04:36 PM	#1
Midnight getDare Sweetheart Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: When I'm in one location, I'll let you know. Doubt that will be any time soon. (Thanks work!) Posts: 438	I'm Hurt I feel completely unappreciated at home to a point to where I might revert back to my form of self medicated which my two best friends will probably kill me if they even know I'm thinking of going back to it, even in its most insignificant form. My brother gets away with everything: food in his room from like the past two weeks and dishes that will probably have to be thrown away if they ever come out. But I leave one cup in my room over night, I get yelled at. I understand that I'm twenty two and all but my brother is about to turn eighteen! I put away laundry, do the kitchen, even run to the store and I feel like it keeps going thrown back in my face and I'm really starting to get scared that I fall backwards (mentally and emotionally) and I don't know how to stop that from happening. I can't talk to my parents about it because they go with the whole "you're an adult" card but to get snapped at when I do something out of niceness, it hurts (really hurts). How do I stop these feelings from happening? I'm not one to admit weakness or even fear much but I'm genuinely worried about my mental health now. __________________ Spoiler: Yes, I still exist. Just quiet and guarded. Be careful when you talk to me...you never know which personality wants to play. You can message for whatever. I'm open to conversation. Anything else...well, you saw the little memo about the many personality...it also applies to moods.

01-18-2011, 04:45 PM	#2
Star Shadows Prodigy Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Uk Posts: 4,707 Blog Entries: 13	I know the felling, I experience similar at home you just have to keep telling yourself you are worth more than what they make you feel, know that you are awesome and try to ignore it as much as possible. people are always going to come and try and knock you back, sometimes it is family and sometimes it is others around you. But maybe confide in a friend, let them help you. I found that helped me a lot. __________________ Do not ask me for to be your slave, your mistress, or to give you truths or dares. You're wasting your time. Informative threads: Anonymous S/M advice service Threads of note PM MEGET S/M ADVICE WORSHIPS RACHIE**

01-18-2011, 04:53 PM	#3
Logan429 getDare Sweetheart Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Washington!!!!!! Posts: 290	ALright, I see your position here. My sister moved back into our house twice. The first time with her first kid, and the second time (a few months ago) with her and her TWO kids. She 7 1/2 years older then me so yaa... I see her as a loser but watev... atleast she's finally starting to get a steady job and isn't living with her parents anymore. You could try helping around the house. I know my parents get stressed when they have to come home to a messy house, and that's usually when fights happen. So cleaning the house up for your parents may take the stress off your parents of you living there a little and make them less... tempermental. My sister was a slob, even when she was living here, which didn't help her out at all. ultimately you're going to have to eventually move out because it doesn't sound like they are too happy about having an adult living in there house. As for the emotions, meditate. I know, it may sound a little alien to you at first, but really it's just a time to clear your mind. It'll get any negative feeling off your chest. So what do do: Find a nice quiet place and something soft to sit on. Use earplugs if other people are there making noise. Then sit cross legged with your hands on your knees (palms facing up). Make sure you posture is nice and straight and your head is perpendicular. Meditation should be done (time wise) of how old you are. So if you are 22 I would say meditate for about 20-25 minutes. Once your in the position, close your eyes. Focus on NOTHING (this is what will relieve you of your stress). Any thought that pokes it's head in you must throw out, make dissapear, or ignore. Have a clock nearby aswell so you know how long you've been meditating (you'll tend to lose track of time). In, a nutshell, don't think for 25 minutes. Hope that'll help you. I meditate daily and my stress levels a low. Hope you figure your stuff out. And atleast try meditating, it'll grow on you, and help you. __________________ Rawwrr!!! LIKES: Slavery, Semi-messy, Long dares, socks and feet, toe socks, ductape, saran wrap, underwear, leggings, semi-public, humiliation, embarrassing situations, running, hypnosis, new stuff =P LIMITS: Scat, Extreme public, anal, extreme pain, family, friends, x-dressing (I would but I only have 1 pair of panties and some leggings) Kik: NickTrick2 I like playing TorD on kik if you're up to it. I am part of messyslut8's league of slave and she is by far the greatest of them all Last edited by Logan429; 01-18-2011 at 04:55 PM.