Mental Health

So.. this is hard to do and say, but giving in to my better judgement I must put my activity here on hold. My reasoning for this is for the sake of my mental health. Over the past month I have tried to kill myself twice, and have been depressed to a point I have never experienced before, even though I've been diagnosed with chronic depression for the better part of the last decade. After a recent mental breakdown in the past week, I've been forced to reevaluate my well being, and as a result, I don't think I am of mental capacity to submit myself to everything I have signed myself up for. This does not mean that I do not want to go through with it all, but rather that I am currently unable, at risk of my life (as it actually is seeing as how I've tried to take it twice already). I am incredibly sorry for everyone that was waiting for me to provide a source of pleasure in committing the acts that were given to me, and do know that it pains me as well. But also know that I do plan on doing them at some point, some day, but not until I think my life and mental state are stable enough to handle such in addition to my daily life, which currently I am not able to do either on a regular basis. I am in a suicidal state of mind nearly every day as of late (being the past several months), and don't think these sorts of activities are beneficial to me, nor my survival, currently, as much as they may be arousing, exciting, and as much as I want to do them. Thus, it is in great disappointment to myself that I must put everything that I have committed to on hold until further notice, being when I feel I am of a sufficient mental health to not only sustain myself, but the demands of others, and also the commitments I have on a daily basis.

Do note, that this does not mean I am pulling out of anything I have committed to already. I promise to follow through on everything, but I will do so at a later date when I am stable enough to commit myself without risk of heightening my risk of suicide. I am incredibly sorry for delaying my reports, for delaying carrying out my orders and dares, and do encourage that you PM, visitor message, or respond here any punishments you wish me to incur for doing so, as it is my fault, and I deserve punishment for being incapable mentally to carry out the tasks handed to me. I will not only perform all punishments given to me within my limits, but I will also perform all tasks, rules, and everything else I was committed to before this post as well, upon my return. Thank you very much for reading, your understanding, and I hope you all will be here when I return to follow through on all that I have committed myself to.