An exit out of a bad M/s relationship
The last topic I wrote was about the M/s relationship and how I think it is supposed to be based on mutual trust rather than fear:
http://www.getdare.com/bbs/showthread.php?t=47330
But suppose you’re a sub in a bad relationship, it can be incredibly hard to muster the courage to end it. So what do you do?
First of all, if a Master is right for you is YOUR decision, not anyone else’s.
If you are with the wrong Master for you, you have to realize it was NOT your fault that you got into this situation. That’s very important to realize. Do not blame yourself.
This often leads you feeling scared and very much trapped and alone. sound about right for you? Well you aren’t alone. This site is full of people who will do all they can to help if you ask them to. More on that later.
Right now, you probably feel degraded due to the treatment of your Master. It’s difficult to grasp now, but you are just as valuable a person as the next guy. Don’t trick yourself into thinking you are any less than anyone.
You have most likely also done things that you would never ever have done otherwise (broken limits). Don’t worry about that for now. Try to focus on the good things in life, on the friends and family around you. There are most likely great friends on getdare as well. Try to tell some people what happened to you, however vague you may feel you have to be. Sharing these kinds of feelings helps a great deal.
What your mind has done over the past time is build barriers to protect you. These barriers can manifest themselves in different ways, for example by blocked emotions. In time you will be able to break these barriers again which will be a difficult time, but it’s also required. At those times its important to have your friends and loved ones close to you.
Perhaps the most difficult thing for you to do is to trust yourself again – after all you got into this mess because of a single wrong decision right? Please realize that you have your friends to help you. The worst that could happen is for them to help you.
The relationship you had was based on fear, and chances are that you are still very afraid of your Master. Try not to be, because you will end up fearing your fear and making it into a much bigger “monster” than it needs to be.
Look straight at your fear and realize that what you are fearing is in fact not as bad as you think. In the end, the worst that could happen is you running back to him. And then all it takes is one of your friends to help you. Therefore, you have nothing to fear.
It is a long way to go now, and it will be rough sometimes. But if you realize you have nothing to fear, and have your friends near you, I’m sure you will get through it. Also, here is a list with links to profiles of people that will do anything they can when you ask them via PM.
Anjelen
Chloe
Dutch
Leo
Merlin
Star Shadows
Sweetsong