25/MtF ama

[KawaiiAlly]

Hi all!
I am Allison, Ally for short. I hail from somewhere in the Southeast United States. I am transgender, and have recently started transition.
Ask Me Anything!

[Wolf007]

Hi there Ally!

Let's see...aah yes:

What's your most favorite song of all times? The one that when you hear it, you just have to sing along...loud.

What's your wildest sexual fantasy?

Dogs or cats?...or wolves?

[lotusdriver81]

What does your transition journey consist of? Are you nervous or excited?

[KawaiiAlly]

Originally Posted by Wolf007

Hi there Ally!

Let's see...aah yes:

What's your most favorite song of all times? The one that when you hear it, you just have to sing along...loud.

What's your wildest sexual fantasy?

Dogs or cats?...or wolves?

Just about any anime song. I am a horrible singer though.
Wildest sexual fantasy? I don't know that I would ever do this, but to give someone else complete control with no limits, and basically not be allowed to talk, period.
Cats. 3 people in the house, and each of us has a cat.

[KawaiiAlly]

Originally Posted by lotusdriver81

What does your transition journey consist of? Are you nervous or excited?

That's a very complicated question. I am still trying to navigate it myself. I haven't come out publicly, but all my friends know, and certain communities, such as this one and a few others. I moved away from everyone I know, so it's easier to transition here, and pretty much start over as a new person.
I'm nervous, because while I know my mom will accept me, most of the family is uber religious, so I worry about her especially. I am excited though, because I can finally be who I always have been. I was engaged for a long time, and the person I was engaged to is transphobic. She makes posts about how trans people should die, when I told her, she tried to out me to everyone we had mutual contact with, and destroyed parts of my wardrobe, and tried to kill me essentially.
So this is why I am not very far along.

[lotusdriver81]

Originally Posted by KawaiiAlly

That's a very complicated question. I am still trying to navigate it myself. I haven't come out publicly, but all my friends know, and certain communities, such as this one and a few others. I moved away from everyone I know, so it's easier to transition here, and pretty much start over as a new person.
I'm nervous, because while I know my mom will accept me, most of the family is uber religious, so I worry about her especially. I am excited though, because I can finally be who I always have been. I was engaged for a long time, and the person I was engaged to is transphobic. She makes posts about how trans people should die, when I told her, she tried to out me to everyone we had mutual contact with, and destroyed parts of my wardrobe, and tried to kill me essentially.
So this is why I am not very far along.

I see that must have been a very difficult time. When/how did you first realise you wanted to be female?

[KawaiiAlly]

I first understood it fully in Middle School. See, living in the southeast, this kind of stuff is never talked about. As early as elementary school, I had all girl friends. I went over to their houses, and we'd play with dolls, and play make believe kitchen, and even dressup. We'd dressup as queens, characters, sometimes even maids. My parents didn't know any of this. Back then this was before the divorce, and my mom told my dad everything, so I had no one to ask, or talk to. Not until much later. We were even cut off from the internet, because my mother thought it was evil, as it was where my dad got into porn and cheating. So research or talking to people didn't happen until high school really. But I guess the simple answer is, I've always known, but didn't always understand.

Originally Posted by lotusdriver81

I see that must have been a very difficult time. When/how did you first realise you wanted to be female?

[lotusdriver81]

Originally Posted by KawaiiAlly

I first understood it fully in Middle School. See, living in the southeast, this kind of stuff is never talked about. As early as elementary school, I had all girl friends. I went over to their houses, and we'd play with dolls, and play make believe kitchen, and even dressup. We'd dressup as queens, characters, sometimes even maids. My parents didn't know any of this. Back then this was before the divorce, and my mom told my dad everything, so I had no one to ask, or talk to. Not until much later. We were even cut off from the internet, because my mother thought it was evil, as it was where my dad got into porn and cheating. So research or talking to people didn't happen until high school really. But I guess the simple answer is, I've always known, but didn't always understand.

Must have been difficult for you. Are you going to get all the ops or are you not sure yet? Do you dress female 100% of the time now?

[KawaiiAlly]

Originally Posted by lotusdriver81

Must have been difficult for you. Are you going to get all the ops or are you not sure yet? Do you dress female 100% of the time now?

I dress female part of the time. Sometimes to do certain things, I have to match the picture and gender of my ID. I am working on getting everything changed into the name Allison though, so this will no longer be an issue.
I was originally not gonna get the ops due to fear, but after seeing people's results, and seeing what the reality is, the fear isn't killing me as much anymore. I'm still terrified. I've only ever had 1 surgery, and it was before I was old enough to know. I have even refused stitches for long scrapes and cuts. I want it though. I want it so bad.

[lotusdriver81]

Is it an expensive and long procedure? Where would you start?

[KawaiiAlly]

Originally Posted by lotusdriver81

Is it an expensive and long procedure? Where would you start?

It's expensive, yes. I don't know about the length. But we don't start there. My next step is to go on HRT, Hormone Replacement Therapy. It'll block the male hormones, and get the female hormones flowing. It causes things like Breast Growth, skin to become baby smooth, hair to lighten and grow slower on the body, and even to change to more feminine patterns, as well as it can feminize things such as the face to some extent, and even help you grow hips and a butt.
Results may vary, but these are things that can and do happen for some.

[lotusdriver81]

Do you think you'd get the operations too?

[KawaiiAlly]

Originally Posted by lotusdriver81

Do you think you'd get the operations too?

Like I said, it's scary, but I really want this. This is what I am supposed to be.

[lotusdriver81]

It's very brave of you. I completely understand. Do you tuck your "manhood" to hide it?

[KawaiiAlly]

Originally Posted by lotusdriver81

It's very brave of you. I completely understand. Do you tuck your "manhood" to hide it?

Yes, and even if I didn't normally, it's a requirement of the swimsuit for the swimsuit dare.