Feminization as a fetish vs Transgender

[Forrest]

So I've been having a lot of thoughts of being female lately and how much I want it, but at the same time, I can't help feeling aroused. So I guess I'm wondering if one can still have a fetish for that type of thing and still actually be trans. Like I've been talking to my friends recently about wanting to be female, but being aroused by thinking of it just makes me feel like I'm being fake and like I should stop taking advantage of those kind enough to listen and offer support. So I guess I should ask if the two are mutually exclusive? Or if being turned on by it doesn't diminish what it otherwise means.